Secretly in Love

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noise before

akable sou

gol niya at timbre ng boses kapag aroused siya. Sa kabila nang hindi pa kami kahit kailan nakakapag-sex, nakakalabas pa rin kami and w

e his office, on the day I have deci

t was

understanding niya. Akala ko napakabait niya at napakahinahon kapag umuurong sa mas m

talaga nakatagpo na ako ng

pagbo-boyfriend... naiiyak k

a pinto despite knowing I would hate what I'd see. Gusto

ng mga paa. Kumikilos na parang

e works. Gusto kong i-set ang mood para sa kahit anong pwedeng mangyari. He proposed to me last night and I had

oday. Ito pa naman ang hindi ko pa nagagawa sa fo

nding each other sweet, nonsensical messages. He was very attentive and was saying all the right words. Nai-imagine ko pa nga sa isip ko ang mga maaari niyang gawin kapag na

th any other man. Sa kabila ng matapang, ismarte at assertive kong outward personality, I wasn't as confident exposing my body or being

t ako na ni makapagbigay ng motibo. I avoided parties and groups. Noong nagsimul

din ang pagitan since my last attempt to date. And he had been so patient Sa lahat n

ulang sa excitement pero naisip ko, nagma-mature na lang kasi kami at seryoso si Keith sa kanyang trabah

k t

ang buong mundo na ikakasal na kami. Not that I wanted the whole world to know, but it felt good to know he wanted the whole world to know. Kaya ni hindi ko naisip

he was inside kasi iyon ang sabi ng secretary nitong nag-half day sa taga-maintenance na nakausap ko. It was his lunch break and he may be napping, was what I was thinking. Ang dami daw kasi niyang ginagawang tra

k h

op, screwing somebody r

ko ngayong nasa gi

her as her face contorted. Kaya ko lang siya nakilala kasi nakita ko ang mukha niya sa anggulong iyon. His shirt was in disarray, his pants and underwear a pool down his feet on the carpeted flo

he no

saraaaap... f*ck, Laurel!"

-f*ck!" ang halos is

y that they neve

ck you to he

ldn't even say th

orever stay etche

god,

? I couldn't think. I was just going through the motions. I didn't ev

an ko naiwan ang bag ng lunch food. Hawak ko lang ay sus

n his secretary's empty desk. Kapag nakita ni Keith iyon, mahuhulaan niyang may bumisita pero hindi na nagpa

s called somewhere else and nobody was going to eat all that food. I g

hanggang makalayo ako sa kanila, kunwari nagm

horrified at

life! Dapat nagpapasalamat ako na n

ito ang unang panloloko sa ak

ang mangyayar