here the streets curled like secrets and every
vines and silence. The sign above the stone post was b
use. Es
s, windows covered in lace that hadn't yellowed like the rest of the buildin
e was u
it open
dn't
d over time. I stepped carefully, heart too loud in my chest. Every
or wasn't lo
on the f
stale. Just quiet. Like a museu
. An old clock. A single table w
opped m
d been her
d. It smelt of soft perfume and
th tiny silver threads, aged but not torn. Family photos lined the hall, none with
house that had
ting for the right p
stillness told me I wasn
me. Each step felt heavier than the last, like the h
hat one was slightly ajar. Lit from within by soft, natural light
oor open with
of lavender a
speck
single
had kept
e it, ivory handles worn smooth by familiar hands. There was a jewellery box closed. A perfume bo
back of the chair..
efore I eve
photo Halvorsen showed me. The one I'd never seen in real life but
oat ti
de were more dresses, mor
here. Not
life I never
nted someone
mall wooden box sat
: phot
h people I didn't know. Her with a man face turned away. One photo had been r
y chest and sat on
feel like a ghos
ve story someone
until I was halfwa
hed. From the parlou
t be here alo
fr
didn't need. Her hair was a careful white-blonde, her lipstick a vintage red that said she'd be
a sparrow. Her posture belonged to someone wh
ak. "Margot Bellamy. Your mother calle
ust stood by the doorway,
for me," I sa
nerve to come back," Margot cor
pped
knew
Helped train her. Fed her
tay?"
head. "Because she
ect this
rotec
he air out
pulled out a small envelope
to you when you came. A
nded i
n't o
t
uestions,
e after you read t
be careful. Some an
closed in my hand li
and too few beginnings. She leaned back on the parlour chai
he said. "Me. Your mother.
choed. "Th
poison," M
In Berlin, we worked black files. Burnt intel. Bought silence. Y
ne who betraye
mes to Bishop. For immunity. Or pow
ghtened aroun
the t
"Hiding in the open. The only one wh
Why hasn't she
what happens when the wor
and lit one with a match that his
she might give y
if I
what your mother t
t's
led a ribbo
arni
't follow m
dn't n
h the house. Like it had taken a breath, held i
a ghost against time. The photograph box was exactly where I
riting o
rs across the fogged glass l
dy know w
red a
ges. No
but not fa
written it w
who had
rknob just as a sound
Ma
kn
ud one.
pet, the letter still in my hand, the m
ed the
stood
es, sharp and tired and too
wed you,
etend to be
ow",
ast me, int
und som
everythin
ce. Then ask
still tr
n't a
stepped
et hi