racked as I held the cold hands of my mother and shook her soft
silence i
nurses stood stock still, their faces filled with
you just stand there for? I have the money now-look! Here's the
eyes flashed with something
ntle, but I didn't want gentleness
as if my own could compel her back. "Doctor, do something! See-sh
hose two words sliced through
on
as only a few minutes late. I rushed
ou can't do that! Do yo
ody
he things I coveted-every battle, every reason I'd ever had
mother's body against mine. She'd been my diamond, my only r
body convulsing with shuddering spasms. "Mother, please... don't
reel in my sorrow, a hand brush
arter, w
cold hospital room. My chest labored hard, the weigh
ldn't
ldn't
t in a world tha
could possibly hurt anymore,
er shattering reality sl
s pre
did not even know, a man who v
from the viciousness of it all. How was I going to get through this? How was I going to bear a child
my hands pressed against my face. No-I couldn'
hough I knew it was all just a memory, I could sense her strength, her heat, her total belief in me for one final time. And I said to myself,
ing inside me, I had to be brave. I had to k
ual hell. The streets around me began to blur. The horns and voices faded into a distant
d. "I struggled for this money. I prostitut
ical. I opened the door, and it was all as we had left it-the old
with my mother, but
s actua
hter, her scent, her presence-all disappeared too soon. I slapped my hand a
't ready for. A child who would grow up witho
ace as I spoke, "I don'
he door. I did not move. Who could it be? The knock
empted to get up. My legs were sh
ttie-my be
l. "Oh my God...," she cried, embracing me
om head to toe. "Kattie, I was too late with the money. She's dead. My moth
y, Sophia. Please... don't cry." B
Her arms were the only ones that k
ears away. "You're not alone in this. You have me.
ear of surviving this alone still lingered. Yes
o be strong. I had to
ing else, then fo