DISILLUSIONED

loss, the gossip, the pain. Nobody would be able to handle it, not me, not any

knew immediately who it was a

ou're doing, Veronic

e me alone

you a q

red it. Now

aid? It was just a joke,

pissed me off. I came down from the ledge and stor

, and everyone's blaming me for what happened. Like, that isn't enough, everyone is avoiding me like the plague, forgetting that I too w

.." He tried to explain but

t. Okay? And stop trying to change my

bbed my elbow and pu

. You're getting in the car." He

but it was of no use, "Let m

cted a very strategic spot to commit suicide." He held my wrists

. I have to do this." I

n't. Get in

r and dipped my

g me?" I said, tears

ere because deep down, you don't wanna go through w

didn't want to go through with it. I had a serious fear of

only a few, but

thing. I didn't know..." Nathan s

han. And stop apologising, we both know you don't me

ure and I knew that what he was doing

hool, you said I

lie did." H

t back. "I don't know why you won

from your house to that abandoned river j

hy did I have to be

can't I go through with t

s your house agai

house is, Nathan. Stop with t

ve quietly and fo

to a stop and I hopp

Nathan called b

y no to suicide' speech or the 'I didn't realize I've been a

you j

on Monday

mmed the door. And I regretted

ll night?" Judy said a

d she was about to respond but I stop

ay and I breat

ept my sobs silent till I got to my room but I couldn

s I needed death. I really just needed peace. And nothing could give me it but the pills.

sn't ready to face her yet. I went to the freezer and brought out my half-eaten bucket

sy?" Judy barged into my room twent

and paused, standing in front

ions or the reasons behind them. So, I clear

g lady. You came home past one yesterday. What

you want

e me a reason other than you went out. We

" I felt my ice cr

ause I saw Nathan dro

othing else apart from the truth to tell her so I kept the disg

of both in her eyes but whatever it was had me scared. Judy a

n