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t the sun hitting my face

mpossible for me to sleep well. The bed lost its comfort, now they are p

learned to

espond and I yawn. I'm still sleepy. I rub my eyes with t

y eyes again, rub them again, and open them again. No no no.

ng in an uncomfortabl

ale, wea

a dream? If not, how di

eve in God," he mutters, and hearing

d and thick voice sounded throu

w do y

nd I sit slammed on the bed backing up unt

e happening! W

u done with her? What do you want?

ogether and begin to pray internally, as

pen my eyes. She has her arms crossed

at.

im swallow and

nderstandi

it stil

oes he

ber what you ordered

fr

ce. The man moves to the left, which is where the door to my

ven try,

Reply! Where are my mother and my brothe

ce tur

d you a ques

, our privacy, and you're incapable of telling me

an evil, frivolous

ly thing he says and makes me lose my fear

fr

stan

ea

th goe

Constantine?" How come...you

ed Constant

ago, Stella, you didn't answe

beating fast

, her thick eyebrows, her straight and well-groomed hair, her beard, how cl

ad it c

my attention directly to his eyes, whi

what did

hing from last night?

eme

ing I did no

not implore God for a miracle

I walk further bac

ll me and something inside me eases. They'

s me, waiting for

l back. I remain silent, my breathing agitated

, Stella," he pro

.you're a demon, God, it can't...it can'

ne rolls

a, please," he asks and

ou want, C

n in that way

ove

M

. I'll give you money, comfort, stability, happiness, if you g

ow what to

ee, I won't force you to do it with me right away. I will gi

. you're

rt you," he

ke my

u get the mone

he smiles in

oney, comfort. I have qualities, I don't live locked dow

nees to the gr

a state

.. in a

she transmitted, her truth... I have it soaked i

ng how real it is, t

o

what I feel right now. Have I fo

d be sellin

good rea

ning to my mom compl

not seeing my

tired

mir

tant

*

My stomach was screaming for even one bite of food. Upon arrival, I

I greeted her with

" he returns, "who w

I turn around

id you

my part in the play, but not quite.

ice, Stella-she sounds convinced. But

th Owen and Mar

ones-I give each one a k

made

, not so bad

ns in defeat as Mary beats him, "hey St

wn, p

m

mphasi

en the microwave to find half of a lukewar

, lunches and dinners

yb

'm still

key, and it's delicious. Mary and Owen are still playing

too soon for the grades to be delivered to me. I swallow the last piece

tella

om

the fu

mouth!" my mot

m s

ow myself into the uncomfortable chair that d

let's

cut the envelope. What was i

ney. It seem

s.

possible

antine," I s

to count them. They were large bills, one hund

does it mean? I ke

y on the table

good future ahead of me, my mother would be fine with h

full of happines

ear him again-, could you not appear like that

ear my mother yell and I loo

t's just a

ing anything

you'd come by at night-I b

shrugged h

istening to you. I on

s he watching

show up for?"

u should go out now to b

s sinking a bit because it

tanti

t's a gift," he tells me and I see him scratch his chin. His blue eyes are attractiv

der my conditions

arms and crooked a smi

ella-he accepts and I can release the breat

and pulls a wallet o

want-she hands me three credit cards that, it

mouth, s

to accept that much, it's not like I'm a l

. I don't understand why, but my cheeks are flushed. Constan

then my hand, leav

something m

giving it to you and that's it, okay?" D

!" I whisper in a ga

ne rolls

riously, Stella, leav

consis

in the place where it was. A few second

talking to,

to hide it with

to believe me, "I was rehearsing." Hey Owe

es lig

y me somethi

m happily and approach my brother to give him a h

id the same. Although, I only got a

and put it in

!" he yells from

my room, I let

ntine." I spoke loud enough,

it