ie

uld have been a simple procedure, but a long one. Unfortunately, nothing has been easy to

atient this week. I don’t know

mask. My lip instantly twi

the saying someone is thinking about you? Whatever it is, I hope this itching stops so

ooks at me. Confusion circles around in her eyes as s

th what I was doing. “No. Nothing is w

de me with a cloth and wipe

all boy. An image of Mark and his playful smile suddenl

mind and concentrate

for some extra cuddle time with my l

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earn to be with her. Wh

of overwhelming love and feeling like the sc

’s doctor’s appointments while she was pregnant, but my eyes stop on a file labeled Casper’s birth. My fi

ll cute and adorable. My hear

denly asks, “Are you ready? Today is the day your baby is bo

name is going to be Casper. Hey, was your girlfriend coming? I know you can’t stand the

e of days ago.” His voice lo

mile of her protruding belly and glances

t treat me like shit. I don’t understand. I always treat my girlfriends nice, but I seem t

arble brown eyes hold a confidence which wasn’t there a moment ago. “D

in the hospital and checked in for your C-section. We hav

he looks down at her swollen belly with her hand still caressing alon

re she softly says, “I wonder who you will look like. I hope you take after your dadd

nterrupt your moment with your son, but we need

r the procedure. I can’t believe how brave she is. She did this all on her own, but she was still thinking of me

n epidural. Her screams slice right through me. Not long after, when the first drop of blo

urse moves closer to Katie. “How are you going? Are yo

m fine. I just want to see

The doctor and nurses are going to check him out thoroughly, b

de of Katie’s face, she q

nd records the doctor cu

uld have given anything to be there next to her to see all this with my own two eyes. Even though I usually can’t st

quietly weep. I push pause on the video as I

surges through my body. I never thought

op screen and touch my precious son. With a trembl

the laptop and look up to find Shane. His concerned is written all over his face, as a wave

this shortly after that night. The plan was to wait for her to come back from the internship. I was going to ask her to date me and then later marry me. It

“Good.” He then walks away, and

and as I softly whisper to myself. “I came ver

tch as the nurses wrap Casper in a small white sheet and bring him up to Katie’

to the recovery area shortly before you are taken to your room. As long as everything is fine with your baby, we will bring him to your

my heart pound even more. I want her here

I have missed so much, but Katie has found a way for me to capture a p

runs into the living room, waving his