onths

appy, I'm alive, I'm..

ayla Cole, my close friend, who also h

half an hour now, and I've still not been

let out all the pain and anger I felt inside. I was hoping that wit

rtin was finalized and the realization that my entire life, whi

ent I realized just how hurt I was with what happened and how in denial I was being, was when I tried to have a one-night stand with some random guy to clear m

take up Makayla's offer and now, here I was trying to express my positive emotions becau

me to continue with any other positive words that come to mind, but

. I have tried everything possible to push away my anger and resentment but every time I remember how things played out, I become furi

nk of your sister?" she asked, staring at me in a way tha

I had to take a while before responding because I needed to thin

d simply, after deliber

why?" she asked

ld I hate her if it isn't because she betraye

la si

ad an affair with your husband and betrayed your trust, or is there something els

ith my husband and tell me to my face that he never loved me. Do you think I need any more reason to hate her?" I rep

fair, has your sister ever done anything that made you feel

that upset me, but I never hated her for the things that she did back then because she w

, but has there ever been an instance where you hated your sister or almost h

, there have been instances where I almost hated Elena, but I always reminded myself that regardless of the nasty things she said sometimes,

her and that she'd be my new mom. During that time, Elena was already on the way, so she was born only a few months later, and I became a big sister

the signs because I thought I was overthinking everything. There were times when she made me feel like I'm the reason my mom died and there were times when she made hurtful

t being genuine with me, but I used to always just dismiss

have a perfect relationship, but I did care for her, so it hurt me a lot to find out that everything o

felt like she had been waiting all her life to hurt me or get back at me for

ister, how do you feel about your mom

hurt my feelings, but she has always been this way, taking Elena's side no matter what so it doesn't really surprise me anymore, and I've just learned to l

nly reason I'm telling you this myself is because I don't want you to find out when you're alone and get upset. The news might

hat's this shocking news?" I asked, cur

ocial media for a whil

ts, but what does that have to

handing me her phone, and I took i

tin and Elena. I didn't even get to read the headline at first because seeing them just

ul, Martin Beckett, set to wed

more upset I got. A strong wave of anger, disappointment and embarrassment hit me all at once and I felt myse

bastard was finalized, and they're already getting married? Can you imagine the ridiculous and utter disrespec

urself, Nicole. Just breathe in, breathe out, breathe in, breathe out...," M

directing my anger toward her, even though sh

you have any idea how painful it is that they didn't even think of considering me for once and are acting like I

but answer this, is your anger going to change anything about what is happening? Isn't anger only goi

l. I won't just sit around and die in silence while they have their happily

where anytime soon and until I see Elena and Martin pay for making me into a fool, I can't be happy. Ha

at much power over you," she me

long," I responded, gently removing h