Young girls had formed groups, gossiping and chatting about this night. I knew no one. No familiar faces nor anybody who would be interested in spending time with me.

I watched them through the archway on the balcony. What have I got myself into? This life ... . Is it truly, what I wish for? I am here for Edmund, but sometimes I think I will not be able to handle the constant problems in my life, that comes with this new world.

My tears have dried up, leaving only the unpleasant feeling in my heart.

I scan the crowd for Edmund or for Charles – somebody who I can rely on. I am afraid to go out and face another person, who might throw their mean words at me.