ched in cold sweat. Tremors ran through my hand,
w akong lubayan, nanatiling b
to weak to even stand and walk. They forced me to move big bl
ed. Napaluhod ako. Wala ng luhang lumalabas sa aking
rutal motion, he unleashed a forceful kick directly to my vulnerable abdomen. The impact was devastating, sending waves of exc
ed and sounds faded into the background. Umikot
ospital, iyon ang patuloy na bumabalot sa
e the memories of the physical and emotional torment they had inflicted upon me. The pain they had caused still hau
rt me physically but also wounded the very essence of who I was. The
pull me from the clutches of those who had hurt me. Sa aking puso, malaki ang pasasalamat ko sa babaeng tumulong sa'kin, dumating siya noong panahon na pasuko na ako. If our pat
department where I was confined, was pulled back, and a female nurse eme
din nila akong tigilan," I replied,
g gaan ng kamay nito. It seemed like she knew every step of the process by he
as confined in a public hospital in an unknown location. Although I had no clear information in my mind,
always taking care of me and bringing me food whe
la magagalaw," Xia reassured me, placing her hand on my shoulder. I smiled at her
napatingin sa
sia dahil sa head injury at trauma na naranasan ko, at
r are painful memories and this baby in my womb. My hope, my strong warrior," I replied, tear
-confine ako ngunit wala pa din ako
ss. But the good thing napapansin ko naman ang pag-heal ng mga sugat ko, at ang fetal heart rate n
ay siya,
er who the father
nahanap? o alam niya ba
question if there was anyone out there searching for me, if I had a family or a loving husband who cherished
icably sad, sensing an
kasagutan. Kung may kasagutan w
binigyan pa din ako ng rason para piliting lumaban at magpatuloy. The love and responsibil
it akong magbuntis, dahil na din sa malnourished ako. I barely ate under the contr
ecause if you're stressed, the baby gets stressed too. And I have
ghten my spirits. My friend was right, I shouldn't be
kong mag d
y child too. My baby was my only companion
ya kanina. te qa"Ano pala ang good news?" tanong ko habang marahang binuklat ang
a sa pagkain dahil hindi na sanay malamna
. Madalas ako nitong kulitin sa pagkain na gusto ko, minsan ay nahihiya ako per
a nga ak
y, sagot na nila lahat," Xia exclaimed joyfully
and weak to even find a way to get out of this hospital. It's not possible for me to recover wi
o health and wholeness. I can feel that she was doing it not just because I was her patient,
ko naman 'to? Ang magpatuloy mabuhay a
ault that the
ang taong nanakit sa akin. Pero mas higit ang nais kong makalabas sa hospital. Nakaka-suffocate at naka
to smile again. Even though you haven't shared your past with me, I can sense the pain y
ng paano ako pinahirapan ng mga masasamang taong bumihag sa akin.
his was the agonizing reality I endured for several months while under the control of these evil individuals. My body was covered in bruises and w
paghampas nila sa aking ulo n
ent reminder of the trauma I endured. I have forgotten some of the things that were done to me by th
oping that it would make it easier for me to endure without the burden of reme
ia asked. I was already cleared
belongings, puros damit lang na bigay s
kiramdam ko naman ay naka
ription for my baby. Medications, vitamins, and milk. It seemed like
d last. I couldn't remember anything, and
niya akong doon na sa kanila tumuloy. Nang una, tumanggi ako, nakakahiya kasi sigurad
anin ko 'yon kung saan ako tu
ukha ka pa namang mayaman," Xia, still wearing her all-white nursing uniform, looked beautiful with her he
s better to accompany her. This way, I would have
t me looking rich. Baka nga walang
pupulutin kung wala ka," I smiled genuinely at my fr
assion. We had grown close, treating each other like sisters, and she
a nandiyan para tulungan ako kahit wal
agay," Xia replied. P
undings. The path was unpaved, and trees lined the sides of t
a said as she got off, and I followed her. Sinalubong ako ng malamig n
hindi kalakihan, gawa ito sa semento, simple, mali
a said. I nodded an
akin, kung madalas ay pinanghihinaan ako ng loo
ako, mananatili
unto mapagod na ako ay may
ing ang iniasam ng puso ko. Hindi ko matuko
ope