My S**y Strawberry BF

"What's the deal with you?" hindi ko maiwasang tanungin siya habang nakatingin sa kanyang mapupungay na mga mata, "Hindi naman tayo, Eion.”

Bigla siyang napahinto sa aking mga binitawang salita, na parang hindi makapaniwala. Oh his eyes.

Alam niyang kahinaan ko ang kanyang berdeng mga mata kaya’t ganyan sya makatingin. Mistulang umiilaw ito kahit na sa dilim. “Kung tayo man.." he paused, his jaw clenched,"then am I allowed to be angry?"

“No way, Eion. I told you, meron na akong iba. He treats me nice….” I said to him, wanting to add, "at mas mabait pa sya sayo ," but my voice wouldn't let me.

"Then say you love me as well," tumikhim sya habang sumandal ng konti sa akin upang parehas na kami ng tangkad. The air feels different as the tension circulates throughout the room, engulfing and suffocating me.

His deep voice was commanding, but there was a hint of weakness in it as if he was begging me to listen. He clasped both of his hands around my neck, upang pigilan ako sa pag alis.

‌ This got me thinking, ganyan ba sya kalasing to the point na kaya niya akong iconfront nang harap harapan?

Gosh, what is happening? I feel really sober now...

“You’re just drunk. Stop it, Eion. Itigil mo na tong kalokohan mo. Tigilan mo na ako.” I almost pleaded, but I said that so sharply and with so much confidence I could hear my voicr strain.

"Hindi ako nagbibiro pagdating sayo, Snow.” He was so close to me that I could feel his breath fanning my cheeks. I swear, naamoy ko na ang kanyang mamahaling pabango which exuded his masculinity.

Napatingin sya sa aking malambot na labi, making their way up to my hazel eyes, and then bumalik sa mga labi ko ulit. He bit his own lips as he gulped.

Napaisip ako bigla kung paano ko kinaiinisan ang kanyang ugali. How demanding and arrogant he is. Biglang sumikip and aking dibdib na para bang may pumupiga dito habang and aking sikmura ay bumaliktad

He was bad news for me.

A very bad news and I knew he'd never stand a chance against my fiery side.

If I give in to his temptations, walang magandang kinahahangtungan ito. Hindi nga maganda ang aming simula pero nang marinig ko ulit ang kanyang malalim na boses Goodness. I knew deep down that no matter how hard I tried to hide it, I could never stand up to him because he was both my weakness and my strength.

It was calming me down, beckoning my soul to come closer and undress from all my hatred and rejections. Moreover, I had no idea how badly I needed it until now. He's going to be my undoing.

Biglang katahimikan ang pumagitan sa amin.

Ni isa ay wala man lang nagsalita sa isa’t isa habang hinayaan na lamang namin na ang aming mga mata ang kumausap.

His emerald eyes searched for an answer, ramdam ko kung gaano kalalaim ang kanyang emosyon pero hindi ko pa rin siya maintindihan.

Well, no one understands Eion well enough.

Hindi ko makayanan ang kanyang tingij kaya napatingin ako sa baba.

Eyes really do not lie.

At yun ang totoo. Kahit na gaano pang masasakit na salita ang sinasabi ng isang tao, the eyes convey what the heart desires. Eion was the emotionless type in this case, pero ngayong nasa harapan ko sya, it feels like ibang tao and kaharap ko.

"You called me a strawberry guy, a robot, and other names I couldn't even come up with. But why can't you address me as yours?" Tinanong nya pa.

Uhm…ano bang sinasabi nya? Hindi naman ako sa kanya.

After everything he's done to me? Hindi ko maiwasang magalit.

Mariin ko syang tiningnan, "You were never mine, Eion, and I was never even yours."

I forced my feet to remain still because they had been trembling for quite some time, almost turning into jelly. I escaped from his cage and took everything I needed from the chair.

“Kaya please, itigil mo na to, Eion. Alam mo naman ang aking sagot. No. As in hindi. Hinding hindi mangyayari ang gusto mong mangyari dahil pagmamay-ari na ako ng iba.”

Gustong gusto ko ng umalis pero pinigilan nya pa rin ako.

"You know, I wish I hadn't met you." I came to a halt, turned around to face him, and glared at him. Malapit ko na siyang masampal pero napahinto ng marinig ko ang mga sumunod nyang salita.

"There would be no need to impress you then. There's no need to want you. There is no need to love you. There's no need to cry over you. There's no need for heartbreaks."

Napaawang nalang ang aking bibig. Did I….hear him correctly?

Hindi ako marupok. Hinding hindi. Hindi ito tama, Snow.

Bigla kong sinabi sa sarili ko.

"Hindi kita gusto dati. You're nosy, loud, blunt, childish, and irritating; you make me yell and drive me insane."

I was about to protest pero bigla niyang hinawakan ang aking bibig to stop me, "I can say 100 negative things about you, but I can also say 101 positive things about you. You are everything I desire, Snow. Everything. Ikaw lang ang gusto ko…all this time…and I was completely unaware of it. I didn't realize it until that fateful day….”

“Because I want to ignore my feelings and I despise myself for not being able to do anything about it."

Napahinto pa sya bago tinuloy, "I didn't know how to express how I felt about you, Snow. That's why it's the only option I could think of." His voice clings to one emotion...despair. "And I'm sorry about that. Patawarin mo ako.”

I swallowed the lump in my throat hearing that, "I understand. Salamat sa pag inform nito sakin. But you must put an end to whatever you are feeling right now, Eion.” I warned him. Kailangan niya nang tumigil bago pa huli ang lahat. Before I let myself jump to him at yakapin lang sya ng mahigpit.

It’s just the alcohol thinking, it’s just the alcohol, Snow...I whispered to myself.

Before I knew it, I was being grabbed by large hands at naramdaman ko nalang na nagtama ang aming mga labi.

It all happened so quickly ng hindi man lang ako nakapag iwas. I could almost swear that I fought as hard as I could, my defense was up, but it took only a few seconds for me to give up.

Lahat ng cells ng buong katawan ko ay nag give up nalang at hinayaan sya.

His breathing became ragged, and I let out a moan. I opened my eyes from the kiss to see him close his eyes and smirk with his lips. He kept doing it to me, ignoring my complaints. He looked at me intently as he broke the kiss. "Give me another chance please; you'll fall in love with me soon."

Nalasinghap ako. Kung sinabi nya nalang to bago pa ang lahat…

We could have been happy in each other's arms. If only we had started out normally, rather than in a hate-love relationship…

Sighing, I wiped my lips with a cloth, gathered myself at tinulak sya at biglang lumakad sa pinto, palayo sa kanya.

Hello. I am Leizel Snow Garcia Waterstrings. Paano nga ba ako nandito sa posisyong ito? Well, let me tell you, even I don’t know it. Everything was a blur to me, and the only thing I remember from the past was a man named Eion Hudson, whom I referred to as strawberry guy and robot.

Hindi sya mahilig sa mga bisyo or skip classes like bad boys do, but he despises everyone. He glares, he tests my nerves and willpower, but most importantly, he loves me.

Hindi sya sumusugal pero para sakin, handang handa syang isugal lahat.

Me, and only me.