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situation is forcing my future to seem not so bright . perhaps, looking even a bit bleak . as I numbly sit here, freaking bored out of my mind; suffering through what I bel
f meaningless dates that seem to overlap
grandeur, being how he's under the insane belief that he's some sort of irresistible 'Ladies' Man'; considered to be a 'great catch'. A pure narcissist through and through; who
overall appearance and looks are at best minimally average; even possibly being considered to be nondescript. And, if you were to take away that cocky arrogance and nasty rudeness; he'd probably be left w
an air of confidence . or, perhaps; it would be more accurate to say over-confidence. Case in point; we'
s thinking . if he's bothering to think at all. Actually, now that I think about it; it's pr
stare in his eyes while he was ogling over my body when I first entered the restaurant, that he was only interested in my physical beau
that I'm frequently praised by others; saying how . in their opinion, anyway ... I'm beautiful. Personally; I'm not claiming to be
a person, in my earnest opinion, is more valuable on what's on the inside. And, even if this dullard believes otherwise . which; he has ev
. clu
stunned expression etched on my
must have misheard you. Did you ju
lies; in an irritati
tly . I did say that w
his mouth; looking as if nothing out of the ordinar
e hottest chick that I've ever been out with . so; why not. My mother insists on me taking a wife, anywa
ression contort into one of repugnant disdain; as m
you couldn't be any further from b
ression overtakes
't unde
but to chuckle
don't understand. Even after only spending about a
ok now overtakes
Hu
that I can't laugh. I look him
of being out with. And, even though we haven't known each other for that long; I'm absolutely sure that I no lo
my chair; and, quic
ner . trust me, it's a small price to
e; but, turn back around to face hi
o keen on being with 'hot chicks' . in the future; may
g at this 'train wreck of a blind date' . now I can leave with pride, holding
my sights focused on the door; I inadvertently hit the corner of a table with my t
rward. Suddenly . I feel my upper arm being firmly grasped and held onto in a strong grip; then, I'm brusquely pulled back to my feet, b
es from the pain; as
e from the embarrassment of the situation; although, I can't really deny that I'm not feeling a burgeoning sensatio
okay? You're not
ing those words of concern are . for some unknown reason . causing my knees to buckle. So; between his tight
lling me . and, I slowly opens my eyes. In an instant, all of my previously righteou
rrently displaying an amicable . yet, slightly mischievous . grin. And, of
overtakes my cheeks. Not bad considering the alternative. Honestly speaking; if I were an anime character ... my cheeks
y his aesthetically pleasing looks . my heart is all aflutter; while my brai
ly killed; as I hear that annoyingly i
hould get married; and, you're already in t
y wishing that I can use them to throw daggers at him . and, s
as far is that proposed marriage goes . jeez, I know your dense; but, even a piece of drift
nother . with our seething eyes
hem
stantly soothes my soaring ire. I gaze up at that gorgeous face; and, my knee
but; you never did answer me
becoming excitedly aroused
s . th-t
; I hope I'm not drooling. . And, what's this; my cheeks feel as if they're on fire. . I w
re wel
with his alluring eyes; while displaying tha
d, not hurt . I should let go of you, now
. struck a bit dumbfounded. Then; i
uy . hold me in his arms all this time; while gawking at him lik
nervously
r-right .
with overwhelming embarrassment; I quickly break f
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led for. It's a cold, wintry evening; and, unfortunately having dressed for a blind date . such a pointless appoi
make matters even worse; my dress was torn when I ran into the corner of the table . leaving behind a long tear runni
, I decide to head to the bus stop, three blocks over. And, as I'm walking; the wind steadily pick
lled for . not giving it a second thought; because all I want to do right now is take shelter from this wintry night ... I i
stuck outside freezing waiting for nearly half an hour. . It's
in an attempt to warm them up, and get some feeling back into my nu
But; I'd still like to offer you a good tip . perhaps, in the fut
and, I jolt my head up; then, stare into the rear view mirror to see if I can catch a glimpse o
ere. Shit . it's that gorgeously handsome guy that held me in his embrace, back at the restaurant! I fee
ed. If I could; I would dig a hole, and bury m
but; it never showed up. I was on my way to the bus stop, when you happened t
rin of his suddenly emerges;
never assume . because, that's when you're
where's a hole when you need one? My eyes
idn't do this
e . so, I look back up into the rear vi
en I said that. I apologize if I upset or embarr
im say that . especially with those words be spoken aloud in tha
d myself; not you. Again; I'm sorry . it was a mistake; I really didn't mean to get into your car on purpose . I rea
t. . The only thing you said that I will disagree with . it's late now; so, I'm afraid I can't
ou take me home to your home? . is
off here. Driving me home would be too much of a bother; and, I really don't want you t
nd; it's no bother at all. In fact; I insist. So,
f you insist . um . it's Avenu
at's done is done; it's too late, now. I've already embarrassed myself enough, in front of him . I really don't want to lo
more of a fool that I probably already look like, in his eyes. In the meantime . I frequently find myself stealing gla
ith images of all those hot, steamy X-rated sex scenes in the porno flicks I occasionally secretly watch; and,
ally gliding all over my heatedly flushed skin . and; a sudden wave of euphoric pleasure surges thro
n and tingle. And; my crotch slowly heats up and m
an incredulous . and amused . expression overtakes his countenance. T
s is where
in high school, to be more exact. I suppose that's why the address was stuck in my hea
I was a teenager; sometimes it seemed like I did liv
. . For me; it was
me from that idiotic blunder of mine . I mean; what grown woman doesn
le giving you my actually home address. Hope your not offended; it's just now
pretty good . he sho
es; then
her main priority; and, she should do everything she
m glad you
he bo
teasingly
t a false address as a measure of defense to assure your safety . again; you first mig
ly would have smacked him upside the head for saying that. Wait; who am I kidding . I wouldn
ight. That would be the
ry, winter wind, across my heatedly flushed skin . causing me to start incessantly shiver. Calvin
g, heavy winter trench coat he's wear
s. You look like
course . I'm momentarily quiet for a
reezing. ..
of the 'belt' affixed to the trench coat together. Its length was long enough to almost completely cover my nearly
rom top to bottom; staring at me, while looking as if he wanted to 'eat me all up'.
seems to
it's cold and windy out; hopefully he'll think th
y, now. Be sure to
thanks .
front driver's side of the car;
his coat back with me; how will
ievous grin back at me one last
each other again. You ca
wly drove off . leaving me standing there a b
he mean by that? . God, don't tell me th
scent he left behind on it. I allow the aroma to linger in my nostrils . allowing me to rel
e up in the coat, while taking in more
***
atrocious her best friend's selection of a blind date for me was . adding t
me across; considering that I was still 'on cloud nine' from the time I spent with Calvi
fs of that enticing, masculine scent; as the occasional erotic thought passes through my mind. But; this happiness is rudely interrupt
who I ran into today . that c
that name . totally taken aback and s
high school sweetheart, Johnny Evans. And; not only was it bad enough to find out that my best friend had been cheating with and screwing my boyfriend behind my back . the unre
me enough by what she did ; it was nothing compared to the hurt I received from Johnny . my so-called bo
that he only slept with her once; and, that he didn't mean to get her pregnant. Right . as if by only doing it once, wit
sleeping around with other guys at school; he wasn't even sure that child was his, or not . but, sinc
man before; and, stay true and loyal to the woman he was alread
bad old days', and zoned away from the conversation; bec
re you still there . are
. I'm still
t uttered a word since I mentioned
"Yeah; I'm okay. . Sorry; I guess a got a li
r you to say something; but, you ne
myself; in hopes of sounding
ything else you wanted to tell
tarily silent; before he
pecially since I just told you that I ran into 'that person', today . but;
l a slight bit of trepidation creeping in; and, I'm not really sur
at i
heard through 'the grapevine' that Joh
ohnny Evans . aka: 'the bore'; 'the bitch'; and, 'the bastard'. Right at this moment; my mood has plummeted. My previously 'happy as a lark' mood o
than the last . and; can't even remember what Anni and I talk about from that m
he next few hours; staring up at t
***
day; early in
ight's discussion; and, eager to find out how I was
up, yet? How ar
nly having managing to drift asleep about half an hour ago. So, needless to say; I'm
was doing fine until you came busting i
oo early in the morning
looks like somebody woke up on the
all I say . I'm finding it hard to feel the love; and, am becoming a little perturbe
in . does it look
own against the mattress with my hands, in an attempt to drown out Anni's 'early bird chirpiness'
e last night's blind date was a success. I take it you've finally found your 'Mr. R
and flip over onto my back; then, struggle to open my lightly encrusted, eyelids. Once they're open, I briefly
from a success . in fact, it was a total 'train wr
hat . but; was it
ittedly on the hunt for a 'Trophy Wife'; and, actually had the nerve to suggest we get married . s
out a loser . wi
now;
ghtly together into a th
our mom's way too anxious for yo
Williams' 'exemplary example of a mother'
hat I'm referring to;
apple doesn't fall to
now that when I first befriended Abby. It's no wonder my mother never liked me being friends with Abby; and, would always pass subtl
t, after Abby slept with Johnny; Mom filled me in on all the sordid details. She explained that the only reason why she didn't tell me sooner, was becau
ave been blindsided by my so-called best friend and boyfriend back then. Who knows; maybe
happened between Abby's mom and my father, and Abby and me, is probably the driv
en . so; t
inquires . while displaying a little
g since you were so turned off by your blind date l
. She
ly safe to say that this
gain. Sh
whose
in comes rushes into my mind . and, I can feel a huge smile expan
ish grin; while intensely stari
belongs to..." Anni quickly leans in towards me, and sharply shoots o
together; it's too early to say that he's my 'Mr. Right' . but; I'm certainly not ru
nge the subject; as I
was this late. I better hurry up and get ready for work.
, I'd say that someone was tr
a knowing-look;
But, no; I don't have to get to work. I took the day off; be
nice. Be sure to say
t to look for an outfit;
on't worry about us poor, schleps who have t
grins. "Don't w
. "I'm sur
ps out; then, blows
e you
and, I get r
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