. Her eyes were already wide open, fixed on the sterile ceiling of her one-bedroom apartment, searching for cracks that sim
t, worn robe. Her bare feet padded across the wooden floor, cool and smooth beneath her soles. The routine was ingrained now, a second nature she perfo
measured, predict
the capacity for warmth anymore. People arrived with questions, with distracting noise, with burdensome expectatio
you were livin
uiet. A calendar reminder. She didn't need it. She already knew today was her
one call
were no messages from her family, no belated greetings, not even a single spam call. Wi
ldings loomed above her, sheer glass and sharp silver edges. Beneath them, people flowed like a river, rushing through their own routines: women in impeccably
n them, a quiet ghost
er hood was pulled up, earbuds nestled in her ears, though no music played. It was her shiel
b. Her professors, predictably, didn't know her name. Her classmates pro
ily between a florist bursting with color and a dusty antique shop. The air inside always
swirl of cream cheese frosting. It was the fanciest one they had. Then she wandered
t one of them made her stomach knot with sudden dre
ed
amily. Now a strang
long, cream-colored coat over a designer dress, her heels clicking against the tiled floor with a confident, almost arrogant rhythm. Maedra had
e clutched the single cupcake. A confrontation was the last thing she needed. Not here. Not today. Not when the o
el, tinkling sound Elowyn remembered from their teenage years. Then, as quickly as she'
ses and left minutes later, still
n the living room, bathing the space in a warm, inviting light. She sat cross-legged on the wooden floor beside her coffee table. The s
ruck a
d alive, a soft, d
osed h
ness etched on her face. A grown woman kneeling before a cupcake as if
e only traditio
ds barely a breath against the quiet room: "Please. Just le
urned with a familiar ache, with
red of
of being
ng for something th
the can
quiet that pressed in on her ribs, making it hard to
ng 'shifted
fogged slightly, even though the water wasn't running. A sharp, icy prickli
old radiator kicking on or the fai
favorite soft cotton nightgown, and curled up beneath her weighted blanket. Sleep
when the 'bur
bly heavy, her limbs frozen in place. Then the heat spread, sharp and searing, racing fro
oked sound caugh
open, wide a
om the inside out. She tore the blanket off, her breath shallow, heart hammering against
blindly reaching for the
when sh
ing beneath he
ling just beneath her collarbone, as if br
ees bu
was no pain from the action itself
lai
mirror, shaking uncontrollably,
N
ouldn
t h
y, it had skipped her. That was why they had left her behind. That was why
ldn't be
curse was
meone had
ithin her bones, some
he could hear
a primal
for air, clutching her chest as the silver mark puls
ows outside her window,
it