Blac
ight t
sprawled in one corner of the laboratory, held the test-tube, which he had been studying abstractedly, up to the light. The flickering gas was not good for delicate work, and it was only lately that Barstow, spur
too cleverly for me. But I know you 're dead wrong-even if your confounded old theo
"you are too good a scientist to reas
nt to be wasted in a scheme where not so much as an atom is lost. Bah, your liver is
similar in my life, Barstow," Donaldson denied
the devil d
n have a few theories withou
n a man begins to talk of finding no use for life, he 's eit
he couch tur
tubborn and narrow as an old w
difficulty is simple-clear; I haven't the material means to get out of life what I want. I 'll admit that I might get it by working longer, but I should have to work so many years i
tting not
nces-no one is dependent upon me either directly or indirectly. I have no relatives-few fr
eautiful nonsense,
enhaue
pessimists and all
ed a trifle co
sound deduction? And yet, if I said you don't know what r
face that checked Donaldson,-a
sserted earnestly, "beca
the shelves before him. They paused over a small vial containing a
is?" he
nodded ind
and learned that I had innocently produced a vicious and unheard-of poison. The stuff is of no use. It is one of those things a man occasionally stumbles upon in t
even this discovery ought to have some
ically, "perhaps it has; it makes
ow
t-tube, relieved that the conv
h stubbornly retains it all this while. It is impossible to eliminate it from the body once it is swallowed. It produce
dson
n?" he i
on
a calendar on the wall. Th
ee for yourself how it works. I am making
overture of friendship at Donaldson's low shoes. Then wagging his feeble tail he lifted his head and patiently blinked moist eyes awaiting a verdict. The young man stooped and scratched behind its ears, the dog holding his head sideways and pressing
sympathetically leaning forward with hi
up according to you; within an hou
ea
as seven days ago to-nigh
snuggled with brute confidence closer to his master. Donaldson snapped his fingers coaxingly, leaning far over towards him. Reluctantly, at a nod from Barstow, the dog crept belly to the ground
ng thought and the smile cast a pleasant softness over features which at rest appeared rather angular and decidedly intense. The mouth was large and the irregular teeth were white as a hound's. His black hair was cut short
harmless a creature as you, Barstow, should stumb
have my name coupled with it in these days of newspap
t in silence, exhaling the smoke thoughtfully with his eyes towards the ceiling. The dog, his neck outstretched on Donaldson's knee, blinked sleepily across the room at his master. The gas, blown about by
ns to society, we should pay those, too,-just as we pay our poll tax. But life is a straight business proposition-pay in some form for what you get out of it. There are no individuals in my life, as I sai
usy with his wor
sisted. "You don't seem to get at the
an took a l
ontent much longer to play the galley slave in it. To live is to be free. I love the blue sky above until I ache to madness that I cannot live under it; I love the trees and grasses, the oceans, the forests and the denizens of the forests; I love men and women; I love the press of crowds, the clamor of men; I love silks and beauti
keep after them?" de
get those things honestly in time to enjoy them, in one generation. You can't get them at all, unless you sell the best part of you
face as of a man who presses back a little. For a
dreams now,
ms that fit into things as they are instead of demanding things as they should be? You sle
ne there. Don't-
apped away h
. That damned Barnum, 'Society,' shall not c
wn back a little, rubbing behind th
come out all right by the time I 'm fifty, but I shall then be fifty. I 'd like a taste of the jungle now-a week or two of roaming free, of sprawling in the sunshine, of drinking at
ested Barstow, "
might forget there
to sell something of
nd there you are. Y
ed a moment an
d in the law school, where on a coolie diet I did a man's work. But even you don't know how cl
an to say you
I did n't mind so much. And always I thought it would be better next year, but it was n't. None of the things that come to some men fell to me; it continued the same old pitiless grind until I began to expect it. Then I said to myself that
arstow, "why did n't y
you neared or retreated from the closet where you kept that cake. I 'll admit that this condition was a good deal my fault,-I had a cursed false pride that
dson
ing you,
n. But if I h
rpose of exciting sympathy. I don't deserve sympathy; I went my own gait and cheerfully paid the cost, content with my dreams of the fu
omoting syndicate. I took a room and waited. It has been a long wait, Barstow, a bitter long wait. Four barren years have gone. I have been hungry again; I have gone on wearing second-hand clothes; I have slept in second-class surroundings; my life has resembled life about as much as the naked trees in the Fall resemble those in June. I have existed after a fashion and learned that
don't
nues to tick forces that upon you. There is only one way-one way to dod
d t
heart tick on; t
. The little fellow struck upon his side but instantly regained his feet, blinking sleepily
master, but instantly toppled over on his side. Donaldson reached for him. That which
emist with evident satisfac
he is
ea
ndy! Poo
sponsive lift of the head, no contented wagging of the tail, but that was the only difference. A moment
dy had his week; beefsteak, bre
an being still alive,-
s he picked up the body and carried it in
to thrust this into his pocket and reseat himself before Barstow returned. At the same moment there was a firm but decidedly feminine knock upon the outer door. The chemist
ou, Miss
ou, Miss
t that if I hurried I might possibly find you here. I am all out
onded heartily. "If you will sit
r features, as is sometimes true when the soul grows out of proportion to the years. Her hair was of a reddish brown; brown in the shadows, a golden red as she stood beneath the gas-jet. She was a little below medium height, rather slight, and was dressed in a dark blue pongee suit, the coat of which reached to her ankles. One might expsaid he could not remember a minute afterwards; something of the night, something of the brilliant reflections of the gas-light in the
Barstow inquired, when he
lightened
answered, "
to be out alone at night. Have n't there been a good
have
newsboys and not hear that. The last one
om read the papers. T
adly escor
ested, starting at once for the door. "I 'm in
smile to both m
self prepared
ardon me for boring you so long. It is bad taste I know for
to the country. Loaf a little in the sunshine.
lea
days, possibly
and a pleasan
's hand. The latter gazed at hi
hing that includes the sunshine and everything else worth while in life. I have hesitated about mentioni
ve changed. Bu
ov
a generi
was here. I wish you knew her. She 'd be good for you; sh
on turn
ough, but we move in different worlds. It is n't in me to lov
's your nature. You 've got into the Slough of Despond, and the only thing that
n shook
d, "but the things which content you
re to drop in agai
eet. Once he swung abruptly on his heel and stared at the pavement behind h