essages. When he asked me for help, I stopped being available and made

erhaps he was impatient. In short,

to have seriou

and sometimes I

I would take it over refle

and disappointment, and I was i

building for class, I bumped into a person. When I fell to the g

ook my arm and asked wit

ed up

s Cha

d a grade and wa

ley's secret crush on her. Charmai

ed me, "How about you?

Charmaine with a wry smi

"I reckon the ones who don't

me in a daze and said after a long

"You should start a new life as soon as possible. By

surprise and thought th

be a model just becaus

e others owed me money. Indeed, I always

catfish. Although my eyes were not small, the whites of my eyes were bigge

b a huge handful of candy for them. I stood aside silently, and the elders gave

luntly, "I look at you and think you h

er face exaggeratedly. "Goodness, no! I'm afr

expression on my face left

relatives who disliked my "catfish face", I did not give any

they could

t forget some thing

died art for so many ye

id to look

e to her studio wi

's wear selling only original designs. Now she was a leadin

g on my face, and Charmaine gave me a ne

, I saw the two girls in front of me

ith a raised chin, "What do yo

ipop into her mouth and a

nd and looked at m

t all black and Gothic. She had paid careful at

at myself with my long and narrow eyes. My eyes we

n myself look l

iginal style as "Gothic,

help but r

ht by Charmaine, and she forced

end to look at me. "What do you

as she yelled at me. "Jess, hold on. Just roll

fuss, someone knocked o

, Leticia, said,

he door and

skin. He appeared clean and gentle. The smile in his e

d, and finally set his eyes on me. He stretched out his h

hariah, today's photographer. You're welcome to say wha

laughed. Charmaine did not f

e, and quickly diverted his eyes. He sm

ad a visible cani

in my school, and his style was not like other photographers. Generally, photographers encouraged models

t, as I would be afraid that I co

some photos for a competition. He took a few photos and left the camera behind. He s

e of these wasted films

d, I was e

riah let me do

really

care what p

me to make an

mfortable scene or the express

ut his head from the back of the camera and look at me, and his pai

moyed which I had raised when I was

, Charmaine began t

donkeys will be fed some water

s seemed to be shining like they had stars in them. "Ma'am, I took pho

few months older than you. How dare

felt guilty for taking advantage of the

did not have time to care about us. Zachariah suddenly came beside me and said

a step away and waved my hand to say that he did

temporary photographer, but he was t

ed like a Samoyed and an angel and looked at me. "I can make money working f

ne did not give him a p

so forked out his own money. Every time he came, he would bring a

p to enjoy the cool wind. I swallowed a chicken pie. It wa

ie crust on the corner of my mouth with a tissue, and smiled a

ed to be angry. "I'm

num foil of the chicken pie for me. He ec

nd handed it to me. "Ms. Gaffner,

ok the chick

y knew how to f

me that the best stage of a

ould sense their good feelings for each

not un

enty years, my initial understanding and imaginatio

m was that I kept being nice to him, hop

ove at all. There was only endura

understood what

ariah that I knew that a bo

f the change in my temper before I noticed it. When my menstruation came, he prepared heat packs a

of menstruation. I queued up for Stanley and Sie

le. I could survive the

thing, they could endure everything. After someo

riah and covered myself with a blanket. Just as I

call from

ter a few seconds of silence, Stanley's voice sou

not

ression on the other end of the phone. "If it is beca

"It's in the past

wanting to explain and even apolo

nd said, "You'd better

nd he said, "After class in the afternoo

directly, but he added, "I

react, he hun

hed out worriedly, pressed his hand against my for

o put his forehead against mine. I was a little flustered. I took a

that I missed Zac