"What exactly have I done wrong? Why does nothing keep working? This issue has caused a lot of arguments between me and Blair... Blair has never tried to argue with me before but these days, I'm sure he's tired of me already. All I've ever wanted was to be the mother of his kids but why does fate have to treat me so unfairly?" I sobbed as I buried my face in my hands and she gently patted my arm.
"You can always try IVF. Talk to Blair about it, maybe he'll agree to it this time since he's so desperate for a child." She suggested and I sniffed as I wiped my tears with the back of my hand.
"I don't know if he'll accept that. He's always been a traditional man, you know. He loves everything natural. But I'll try to talk to him again." I replied as I picked up my bag and left the doctor's office.
Walking to the car, I couldn't help the thoughts that spiraled through my head. Marrying Blair was everything I had ever wanted. It was like a dream come true because he was my first love and he treated me like nothing less. He's always adored me and cherished me with everything he had.
Our love was like that of a fairytale, it was almost perfect, but I just had to mess it all up by not being able to give birth. Blair had always loved kids and I knew that it broke his heart that I couldn't give him one.
If only...
A loud car honk suddenly drew me out of my thoughts and I realized that I had been walking on the main road.
"I'm so sorry!" I yelled as I immediately walked over to the roadside and bowed apologetically while the driver yelled at me.
"If you wanna die, go choose to die somewhere else! Not with my car!" He yelled as he drove away and I let out a tired sigh.
Wouldn't dying be better than living an infertile life? I retraced my steps as I returned to my car and drove back to the house in sorrow and agony.
I walked up to our room and to my surprise, Blair was seated inside, looking very dejected and furious. I walked up to him and tapped his shoulder, causing him to jump in shock.
"Oh, it's you." He said when he saw me and I frowned at how sad his expression was.
"Did something happen, Blair? You know you can talk to me." I said while trying to comfort him, but he immediately shrugged me off and turned away.
"Blair? Come on, please talk to me." I begged and it was like he had finally snapped as he got up with anger written all over his face.
"You want me to talk to you? Fine. Do you know what your infertility has caused me? I'm an object of laughter in my family! Even at work, everyone knows me as the one who was married for four years without a child. People even accuse me of being impotent. Is that what you wanted to hear? Are you happy now?" He yelled in frustration and I stood there frozen as his words stabbed my heart harder and harder.
"You think this is my fault, Blair? We've run billions of tests, and it has been proven that I'm not infertile, yet you still think I'm the problem? Do you think I don't want to carry my child? Our child? The only solution we have now is IVF, and I've tried explaining it to you, but you just won't listen!" I replied as tears welled up in my eyes and he let out a frustrated groan.
"If you mention that stupid thing to me one more time, I won't hesitate to throw you out of my house. You're making me regret my whole life's decisions!" He yelled and my heart sank to the deepest depths of my stomach as tears fell freely down my face.
"Hey, I didn't mean all that..." He started but I just smiled at him in response as I turned around and left the room. He had told me exactly what was on his mind, he regretted marrying me.
I couldn't hold in my tears as I walked into the kitchen and cried to my heart's content. Everything was weighing me down, everything was making me crumble and there was no one to support me, no one that I could turn to for comfort.
After crying for a few minutes, I wiped my tears and turned around, only to find my mother-in-law staring at me with a smug smile on her face.
"Mother." I greeted and she eyed me while her face contorted into an expression of disgust as she looked at me.
"I'm not your mother. I definitely wouldn't give birth to an infertile thing like you." She replied with a sarcastic tone and I fought back the tears that threatened to fall as I moved to walk past her when she held my hand back.
"There's one thing I want you to know, and that is, you're leaving my son's house very soon. I'll make sure of it."
"I'm his wife. You can't just separate us as you wish. I will get pregnant and I'll stay by Blair's side." I replied with a determination I never knew I had and she let out a devious laugh that made my skin crawl.
"Why don't we watch and see?"