Tear-stained cheeks, my mascara was now an ugly smudge after being ruined with all the crying I had been doing for the past hour. I could not recognize myself as I looked through the mirror. The more I stared at myself the more the tears. I could hear them in the next room. Their moans enraged me and made me feel like throwing up. I retched but nothing came out. Disgust is what I felt. My life had turned out to be a chaotic mess and I wondered what I had done to deserve all that. I was a good person or so I believed. I smiled through the pain and thought to myself that everything was going to be okay. I did not believe that myself but I had to tell myself to keep going or I would be stuck in a loop with my past trying to set myself free...
Tear-stained cheeks, my mascara was now an ugly smudge after being ruined with all the crying I had been doing for the past hour. I could not recognize myself as I looked through the mirror. The more I stared at myself the more the tears kept coming. I could hear them in the next room. Their moans enraged me and made me feel like throwing up. I retched but nothing came out.
Disgust is what I felt.
How foolish was I to believe both of them? I felt like a complete fool. I had known the truth but now the difference was that it had left my heart shattered and at that moment I thought to myself maybe sometimes the truth does not matter if it will end up hurting someone ...
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Moving states had never been in my plans. I always wanted to stay in my hometown forever but... some circumstances were unavoidable.
Maybe I could forget everything by changing my routines and my daily views, but that sounded like a lie even in my head.
Everyone needed a fresh start once in life... Especially when things never go your way. In my case, things went pretty sour and I needed to get out or else I would drown in the past. It was like I was fighting my past self like I was looking deep into a well. If I don't look away, I will be swept by the darkness of the abyss.
I knew they all wanted me gone; my mother and my brother, the two I never wanted to feel that way about me. My mother always says there is always a perfect time for everything; when I was invited to California, it was as if the perfect opportunity has presented itself in front of me to escape my life and be someone else. I want to believe I was ready to live it.
Going through my daily routine I took a quick shower and now what I despised I had to look through my mess of clothes to get dressed. I choose some sweatpants a hoodie, and my white converse. If you already guessed I am a boring person. I lived alone and checked my clock if I didn't hurry up I'll be late and I don't want to be in detention later I've got work to do.
I grab my keys and go towards my car. In less than fifteen minutes am in the school parking lot. I study at the University of California majoring in biology science,pppttff genius right I know what you're thinking well that's the case but according to the people I meet daily in the hallways, I sometimes think am in the wrong place they don't look like they are supposed to be here or am the one in the wrong place. I grab my satchel bag from the backseat ready to start my day. As I lock my car I hear the well sweet annoying voice of my deskmate.
"Heyyy Ella", Soffie screams
"hey and can you please lower your voice you'll give me a headache" I retorted back at her
"Don't be mean I know you like me you just pretending not ", she said I don't like her I just enjoy her company. I know am being a bad"friend" but I have had enough disappointments in my life from friends and am tired of all the friend's crap. I just continue walking ignoring Soffie but I can hear her rumbling about how my heart is cold.
Cold huh I think I a mentally ill or something I have weird conversations in my head okay well am weird that explains it then.
I can't hear what Soffie is saying beside me because am lost in my thoughts I have like fifteen minutes before my class starts. Looking back at how my life was before I came to California I just have some rules
1. Don't trust anyone
2. Reread the first rule
It's simple but I have to repeat it so you know how much I don't fuck with nobody.
My life is simply no family no friends just me alone. I mean it saves you from all the pain of having high expectations of your friends when you don't know their real intentions. I don't have time to get to know someone so that I can figure out their real motive in my life.
I know not everyone is the same but please I am drained I don't have the energy in me anymore.
"Are you even listening to me Ella God I have been talking to you and weren't even listening to me, you know what just live like people don't exist"scoffs Soffie as she walks down the hallway and leaves me standing there?
I feel bad for some seconds and then I remember what I told myself trust nobody. I don't have the time of being a weakling because I made the only person who wants to be friends with me feel bad.
To survive, you have to hide your emotions because if you don't people will read you like a book, and destroying you will be like a piece of cake.
Cake... how did I forget to grab breakfast on my way here I guess I'll have to go on with an empty stomach.
Looking down at my watch I have like two minutes before my lecture starts I rush down the hallway as I enter the lecture room
I spot Soffie at her usual place I guess I just have to tell her sorry because I low-key kinda like her. She looks up when she sees me "took your time to get here huh," she says. Now that's my girl " am sorry I was just lost in thoughts earlier I didn't mean to ignore you" I say apologetically. "It's fine it's nothing new don't sweat it," she says. I officially feel bad I mean she is trying to be my friend and am pushing her away. I know the feeling too well I know how it feels like to try so much to be someone's friend and they ignore you they just live their life like you don't exist. I push my thoughts away and look unaffected by her comment.
"Well if you say so", I tell her as I see the lecturer enter the lecture room. As I hear the lecturer start talking okay well not talking doing his thing I start drifting back to my thoughts. Everyone has a reason why they don't like associating with people trying to pry into your past. I mean I know friends have to know things about each other and stuff like that but my past is haunted.
The more I know people and tell them about it I think they'll change their perspective on me not that I care but I choose to keep it to myself I don't want their pity.
Pity from people will make you look like a weak person and I don't want to be weak. Talking about some things that open wounds I know, not all wounds heal but being in your past it has to stay there.
I moved here to stay afresh. I used to stay at Gualdahara my past belongs there not here this is a new life and so Good help me if anyone tries to cross my path I'll fucking destroy them. Everything I went through made me realize you will always be on your own and don't rely on anyone. Life is just full of disappointments and those break you real fast. Those disappointments taught me the hard way they made me this cold.
At twenty years old she had thought that now her life had just begun. Her childhood had been everything but good. It could have been worse but she couldn't complain about it. What was she supposed to do? The moment her life began other things arose and she had no clue whatsoever on what to believe. Her life had been a lie all along and no matter how much she tried to make sense of who she was she couldn't. She was lost at sea with all the lies she had been told. She did not know who to believe anymore. She never knew that she had as much power as she had or that people were going to see her as a threat. All she over wanted was to be somewhere that she belonged but the more that she knew people the more she realized that she did not belong anywhere. Could she blame them for hating her though? She did not choose to be who she was and there was nothing she could do about it. As she turned into her wolf form she saw a figure approaching her and she was ready to pounce until she smelled his scent. Hades
PROLOGUE For centuries my brothers had dragged me wherever they wanted to go. They said that family was the strongest bond but in the same way it was the strongest bond it would destroy you in seconds. I don't know why it took me so long to realize it. Nothing would ever change with them. Elijah would go all over the world chasing Edmund so that he could save him. Why could he not see that Edmund couldn't be saved? He was obsessed with power and control there was nothing that he wouldn't do. We had done things in the past that we regretted but he was just something else. I don't think someone could be saved did they didn't want it to happen. Edmund had turned into the monsters that he once hated and he was so deep. that nothing would change it. Maybe love was the only solution but how could someone love if they didn't have a heart? Love was not something that existed in our world. Maybe I was foolish to choose my brothers every time they put me on the spot. But how could I not? They were the only people that I knew who would go to hell and back for me. That was the meaning of family no matter how much I hated them or whatever they did I would also choose them. It didn't matter that I was missing out on being with the love of my life but there was no happy ever after when it came to life. I would be miserable for the rest of my life when the person I loved died so where was the happy there. "You made the right choice ", said Edmund beside me pulling me out of my trance. "Yeah ", I said. I knew I was lying. It was not the right choice because no matter how many times we chose him nothing was going to change. He was still going to be the evil brother that I despised so much but if I didn't choose him he would make my life a living hell. "Don't come running to me when he disappoints you again ", said Mateo as he walked away. I knew he meant it this time around. One would only take you back a couple of times before they got tired of being treated like the second option. Maybe it was for the better this way. We would never be happy together. I would always have to choose between him and my family and there was no way he would win that war. "She won't ", said Edmund smiling down at me.
Belinda thought after divorce, they would part ways for good - he could live his life on his own terms, while she could indulge in the rest of hers. However, fate had other plans in store. "My darling, I was wrong. Would you please come back to me?" The man, whom she once loved deeply, lowered his once proud head humbly. "I beg you to return to me." Belinda coldly pushed away the bouquet of flowers he had offered her and coolly replied, "It's too late. The bridge has been burned, and the ashes have long since scattered to the wind!"
A man like Travis Sinclair wants nothing more than a woman who matches his sexual prowess and is used to getting everything he wants. A cold-hearted billionaire ,he lives by one rule - no love, no commitment. Ayanna Davies isn't looking for a relationship. She's focused on her work and the financial security it brings. As a high end escort, her client is full of filthy rich men who are willing to pay handsomely for her services. But when Travis Sinclair becomes one of her clients, she begins twice about mixing work with pleasure. Not knowing that he is an old acquaintance whom she despises.
He told her to call him Daddy. Not because he earned it, but because he fucking owned her. The moment she signed that contract, she stopped being a woman with dignity and became his filthy little plaything. His holes to use. His mess to ruin. He didn't just fuck her, he rewired her. Stripped her clean of boundaries and filled her with sin. Every punishment made her scream. Every game dragged her deeper into his twisted world. And the way he praised her... Good girl. She should've run the first time he said it. But Daddy doesn't let his toys leave. He breaks them until they beg to stay. ** Mia's life changed the night she let a stranger ruin her. One night. She never expected to see him again. Until she walked into her new job... and her boss turned around. Ace.Her one-night sin in a thousand-dollar suit. Only this time, he wasn't asking her to be his assistant. She was to be his wife.
"I ran. Ran as fast as my legs could go. Away. Away from him. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Hailey Pritchett loved her job as the secretary of Henry Caldwell, the CEO of the Caldwell Industries. She was a woman who liked safety, and stayed far away from danger. However, the company is bought by a ruthless businessman who is known as the Sniper. Theodore Benson is a ruthless billionaire, and is known as the Sniper in the business world. Because he kills his opponents without letting them know. He bows down to no one, and when he wants something, he does everything - whether legal or not - to possess it. When Hailey and Theodore aka the Sniper, come face to face, Hailey knows that Theodore is dangerous. So Hailey does what she does best in the face of danger. She runs. But will Theodore let her get away? Theodore wants Hailey Pritchett, and won't stop until he has her - in every possible way. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
When Zora was sick during the early days of her pregnancy, Ezrah was with his first love, Piper. When Zora got into an accident and called Ezrah, he said he was busy, when in actual fact, he was buying shoes for Piper. Zora lost her baby because of the accident, and throughout her stay at the hospital, Ezrah never showed up. She already knew that he didn't love her, but that was the last straw for the camel's back, and her fragile heart could not take it anymore. When Ezrah arrived home a few days after Zora was discharged from the hospital, he no longer met the woman who always greeted him with a smile and cared for him. Zora stood at the top of the stairs and yelled with a cold expression, "Good news, Ezrah! Our baby died in a car accident. There is nothing between us anymore, so let's get a divorce." The man who claimed not to have any feelings for Zora, being cold and distant towards her, and having asked her for a divorce twice, instantly panicked.
"Listen, Gadreel Ødegaar," she looked at him, not hesitating this time. "It's my anniversary present for you. Let's divorce." *** Ivory Remington had sacrificed five years to look after her husband Gadreel who was in a vegetative state after an accident and a few months ago, he finally awakened like a miracle. She thought it was the start of their happy life but Gadreel still had no heart for her. On their anniversary and her birthday, she received a cheating video of her dear husband and her stepsister. Heartbroken, Ivory chose to quit this stupid game. She decided to set him free but the reason she left on the divorce agreement pierced Gadreel's noble pride. *** "Impotent? Are you serious?" He gripped her wrist and a dangerous glint flashed in his eyes. "I'm a woman, Gadreel. I'm tired of being in a sexless marriage. Let's end it once and for all." "Sexless, huh?" he chuckled lowly and without warning grabbed her chin in between his hands, pulling her face closer. "Turns out my wife was so eager to get a man between her legs? "