did I imagine betrayal wo

ew how much

en

d talking about her to Mum, at least. At random times. Quie

d S

ht we had was boundaries. Respect. Surely, of all t

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as she

he eye on her wedding day t

distance? Was I that far gone from the

even invi

itnes

a word. Just sat

one crashing into another, loud and c

now, I ca

n't t

n until the pain l

t to escape

ng venue, giving the driver the address of the near

iced me leaving. She's

talk to any

possibly ease this

nd me feels like a blur. I walk straight to the receptionist and ask for a room

ithout taking off my shoes. My hands move instinctively to my phone. I star

it h

one vi

c

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on my screen, stil

ee years o

g has c

t. But clearly, a lot

for holding

wer. I wouldn't even know what to say.

was the one

g her in fragments, couldn't keep disappointing her with my i

d I

ecam

never c

y reached out, all

ts up my phone.

ike you, but he disappeared before I co

a while.

w today's m

een for a long time

ere? Or is this her way of openin

e, type a few word

ngra

el

n't anyon

el

ou lov

el

like it has answers. My chest feels tight, the kind of ache tha

tell her

r the truth but even more th

ack up and finally

Congratulations

left my phone, but the

r if she

she'll say an