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ardine cans, two packs of instant ramen, and a whole loaf of bread

already dropping on

to the kitchen counter. "You keep this up,

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from the sink. "You tw

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one of the cans. "Can we agree that sardines ar

ke we have a cho

ish was brain food. I'm trying

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masks. His ju

ed behind her smudged reading glasses. "I

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or

table-an official-looking envelope, creased at the corners

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w minutes later. "I applied

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resumé anyway. Maybe I'll bec

anything w

ffer in the na

essing her palm to her forehead. "I

y. "You're already

Denzel overstresses, and I overcompens

inable one,"

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lling over my chess notebook. The pages were marked with notations,

ting through the silence like

our favorite mo

at the

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curious. al

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down and pushed

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your favo

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despite

ably heading to the balcony for fresh air an

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fled voice outside the window,

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t feels like playing chess-except I don't know

not cold. Honest, but just enough t

nds later. I stared at the screen longer than I'll ever admit, and whe

And I couldn't stop

said beside me as we walked a

thin

the r

the che

a low whist

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our cha

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hosting. She

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n the bench with his earphones in. He looked like someone who woke

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out the fact that you're obviously i

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erves, and nearly collided with Tim at the net. Coach yel

somewhe

ack by the water station

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you're

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way of saying do

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ly, that w

heiza near the courtyar

ques

this is about Denzel, I'm

s the first time I saw you in Mater Carmeli. Quite a pret

like she was deciding to blush

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hink she

g." She rolled her eye

as

hink she's scared. And I think she doesn't l

was hoping for.

en have

don't flirt with Denzel the

don

her, you'r

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ring at my phone again. No text

: hard

harder

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ave and clo

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