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refreshing, and I wrap my coat tightly. Mia walks at my side, discussing the party, but I do not hear her. My mind loops Ethan

t the colourful posters I drew for work that are sitting on the table. They are nice, but I do not think they will be enough. When I touc

y new boss, has a big smile on her face and short black hair. She shows me my desk and says, "Lila, we are glad you are her

flowers for a big client on this poster. They fly, but my mind doesn't. Ethan's green

zzes. "How is the new place? I miss you!" "It is okay," I text back. I miss

l over Ethan." As my stomach turns, my thoughts turn to Vanessa. I saw a blonde woman who ran her hand along h

ick and think I am going to throw up. It does not happen when I rush to the toilet. I look at myself in the mirror and splash water on

feel bad about it. The phone rings while I am at my desk drawing more flowers. It is Ethan. M

," he points out. It sounds like he is talking to a st

s going great." "I will g

, he hangs up. My chest is tight as I look at my phone. Why does he

e need more work." Do them over." Just "please," not "good job." Just harsh words. I keep my l

in a shaking voice, "Ethan does not li

is not him, Lila." There must be some

ork for him. I can no

"Lila, you are great. "

I am scared to talk to Ethan. What if he gets worse?

e, I threw up. I put my head in my hands and sat on the floor. This is not stress. There is

ck to my desk. "Hey Lila, ar

"I am fine." "J

s scared. "Take car

and think about Ethan and Vanessa. Ethan gets the new drafts, and I hope he will be

is dark. When I put my hand on my stomach again, the odd flutter is still there. I feel like I might

asses and speaks softly. They talk to me and give me some tests. I sit in the waiting

say? "Lila, you

e night together while we were on a business trip months ago. It just happened because we were drunk. I

him. I am already moving away from him. What if he does not want it? What if he does not want me? Tear

check my email, I hope to see a message from Ethan. It is short and cold from him. "I like drafts better.

–V" My hands are shaking. Vanessa? Why does she have my phone number? Why does she want me to meet her? It seems like she does not w