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school, and now, I was dying
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New York University, my dream school. Without it, I had no chance. My mom couldn't
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a sitting room, two bedrooms, and a k
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sit back down and log onto
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the silent crying, the mom
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nd SAT schol
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rom Emil
together party, if you don't mind - to celebrate our result and also give m
the message
il
he group that bullied me
ed half the school with his donations,
iful girl every
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't make
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- my life was fin
. New friends.
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ght for me months ago - a dress that clung a lit
as pretending to be someone else. But t
to the address
near Madison
ily, two guys, and two other girls, Olivia
ur dressing really surprised me!"
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weetly - and then Olivia added with a light laugh, "
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jumped in, w
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mily said, pointing to the
red a
" I said,
a saint, Lily. You're eighteen now. Time to start
a party
e Emily
time to try s
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shed across the p
so hard I could f
shamelessly in
n each other on
d with the music until it
ag tightly, try
letely out
ious part of me wanted to
nded me
juice. No alcohol, I pro
my head whispered
my loneliness, maybe my hope - s
k the
ked off toward two gu
ept glancing at
twisted in
ing wa
ck, dragging the t
friends!" she
se... well, you're going to NYU
ned, c
are you tal
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something adults do. You'll enjoy it, e
art d
mean?" I as
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nity tonight. Don't panic. It'll be fine. You're eight
ror creeping into ev
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myself, my
it won't be like this. I'll do it with the love of my life-a man who loves me and wa
aughter fill
k someone like you deserves true love? No m
n a while since I had something fresh..
e exploded behind my eyes. The room spun. My heart thu
e, but it was useless. The wo
me?" I whispered, barely
mirked. "Oops... slipped some diaze
nic, I fumbled for my phone and called my m
Mo
.. ohh Daniel,
I said,
ha
d your
s. We'll talk when I get home.
of laughter d
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she's
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