ad burned with care, the silverware laid out on th
ng down the minutes, or rather not, but praying under my breath we'd finall
en it had felt like magic. The sort of love you read about in books. And so when my marriage had lost its heat
s demure, but I had never been the flashy sort, never hungry for attention. He had like
had grown accustomed to his lateness, his apologies. Sometimes work, sometimes an unexpected meeting, sometimes just... nothing. But tonight
he door cr
hest, a fleeting burst
ooner had Dominic entered the
kind that sets your head aflame and makes you suspicious. She had legs that seemed to stretch on into infinity, lips glossed a deep red to match
was not a friend. She was not an acquaintance. No, she was s
nd easy. The coldness I was accustomed to. No remorse. No remors
moment, as if introducing her was as mundane as ordering din
fully trimmed, the silverware laid out on the table,
at least pretending not to, I had praying under my breath that we'd finally make it togeth
store. I was bent between the rows of shelves, reaching for a book that I could not fi
ike magic then, the sort you read of in those same books. And so, even when the storms came when passio
es. He was a stranger sleeping beside me, a man I no longer knew. He was emotionally unavailable, cruel sometimes, and unapo
eeper than any physical blow ever could. I was his mental punching ba
g he'd come back to the husband I wedde
en the divorce through from my own end but still, still som
rsary gave us a perfect opportunity. I was more than
always loved that I wasn't flashy, that I didn't compete for atten
now. But he never was punctual these days, and his rea
he door cr
hest, a flash of hope.
ic entered the room tha
sn't
ead aflame and makes you suspicious. She had legs that seemed to stretch on into infinity, lips glossed a deep red to match her dress,
ing I had to know. She wasn't a friend. She wasn't some co-wo
t me. His face was blank, co
moment, as if introducing her was as mundane as ordering din
she was too confident, too comfortable in his world. She had a right to be. Sh
oment, my fingers curled into the edge of the dinner plate. I cou
dare
for him. I had worn makeup and dressed up for hi
s self discipline? The anger surged through me wa
d to wail. But above all, I
s tough, that I never let things get the better of me, bu
ot now. Not in front of an outsid
lm voice. I was proud of myself that I hadn't l
Dominic. I didn't want to see the smug expression on his face, or the way he seemed to pretend that noth
f this were a night out with friends, as if noth
ed everything I'd ever thought in my life. He spoke of the
seeing her for a lon
hoed like knives
ence crushing me like an unbearable weight. Dominic and Bella's laughter, their voice
m days ago but I had restrained myself. I had vowed to myself that I would wait, wait f
ched in my hand, standi
ivorce papers in my hand nicely folded in the envelope.
e table. I didn't wan
tootin' sure the words hit. I watched his face intently. He didn't get it initially. He
first. Then angry. As if I was disturbing
but this wasn't the time to cry, not
as
s my last act of