can pretend I do

erally i

r, one hand shoved in his pants pocket and the other holdi

he house, it'll be too obvious that I'm trying to avoid him. I don't need to be this pathetic in f

hing is still the way he probably remembers it being in the past. And

h, preparing myself

caping, no tu

he spots me, but he does a better job

us indicator that he's uncomfortable by seeing me. But it still

might notice the awkward silenc

ow signs of his uneasiness. "I prepared myself for th

t? What moment? Seeing me? Why does he look so unsettled? Am

?" he finally asks

miss the tension in my

chances by approaching me, unsure of how I'll react, and I appreciate him for that. I'm also not sure how I'd r

doesn't know. Maybe he's forgotten though.

he repeats, low

them, I'd tell him the truth to his face, show him how he hurt me, how he shattered my heart and left

oked down my throat, and this is the perfect oppo

iercing blue eyes, expecting m

make myself

inally mutter, and I

I had to say, I sa

s that supposed

doesn't match his expression, though. He does

emphasizes, looking around w

to the party, huh? Your date is probably miss

d of my tongue for once in my life?

nal job

t from me. That's one of the things that apparently didn't change about him. Spencer always tries to hide his true feelings. He doesn't norm

e to know wh

alk to you since, you know...t

rds come out harsher than I intended. "I'm glad you managed to come to the wedding.

n't miss it for the

ty and resume my walk, circling the house and focusing on putti

hts and memories, and I feel slightly na

I expected this moment to be awk

oppy, they are no longer on the dance floor, but rather, they're engaged in a grou

what I neede

ncer's girlfriend? However, I can't run away from this. The party is almost over, and soon, I won't have to worry about Sp

aking a huge gulp from it, and by the time I g

force my brain to make sense of what they are saying. Everyone seems entertained by something Chad is b

once while Spencer joins us. His girlfriend flashes him a smile and wraps her arm around his waist, an

'll have a hell of headache tomorrow," Lauren whisper

wrapped around my ex-boyfriend, and you conspiring w

me and started talking about this stupid game where

mur, more to mys

u took a while to come back fro

ts on the dance floor. I look at Lauren when I hear her gasp, and the way her jaw drops

me, doing her best to keep her voice low with al

e's literally right in front of u

hen at me, nodding. "Yeah

ke hearing that Spencer is looking at me while he has his bimbo gl

ewspaper. Have you met?" My ears perk up when I hear my cousin, Sara,

imes?" Spencer's girlfriend asks me, soundi

ots at the same time, looking su

ng the scene with their breath held, and Chad's eyes are going from the couple to me and back t

. Maybe we met at some point? Millie Carlton?

ay with a forced smile. "Like I sa

, that was an opportunity that came up during college, and at that time, I did everything I could to become a great journalist. Not taking the opportu

years and tell him I was in the city, so we shou

As