i's

e while I was at it, I couldn't help but shudder all through as I could

my trembling hands as I knocked, and the

twisted it, and gently pushed at the door l

t watching him, transfixe

eyes that always had me captivated even if he only ev

looking at some papers and I swallowed har

welcome me with a warm smile. He would hug me lik

e from my reverie and I hurriedly went to his table and

bring it to his lips and almost immediately before I could

nd while rubbing my face with my palms trying to calm the burning sensation. I cried o

could hear his footsteps as he walked towards me while I t

rolling down my cheeks as I tried to st

I squinted to see that he was removing his belt, "No!" I shoo

hange my mind and call the g

that instant an

rather endure that than have the guards use me as I was sti

ipped the belt free of his waist and he tur

face as his eyes narrowed in on

you just

and I grabbed onto his leg holding at the fabric of his trouser

d. I pulled back a bit wondering if he had a change of mind and he took my hand in his wh

ream

a second hand before kicking me aside so

d, "You stink! You are worthless! You are ugly and useless! You look like a corpse, how dare you add

k before slamming my face against the ground and I heard my nose

id bi

rsing as he did with his fingers tightening in my h

I could feel my skin bruising, and breaking as he hit my face again

I couldn't feel my face, I c

was out of breath yet I could stil

your suicide attempt didn't

ad traced his scent to his room to see him mating with Nina before he cursed me out and he desc

keep back f

till I could hear tiny fists pounding

't even assure him this time that it would be okay so I

en he bellowed for the soldiers and soon I was hoisted in arms

would still force me to lay with them and most importantly I could hear Harris's crie

ching against my skin. The smell of horses and manure tickled my bleeding no

eard laughter and zippers

f fighting them off no did I resist when I felt my clothes being shifted and my legs being for

his breath on me as he used me, punishing me with painful strokes

t back, inste

n and dreamt of another worl

nd me. A world where we didn't have to be restricted f

e Haris and

ould feel the strength I had left lea

enced light headedness and the last thing I felt was bef

_

yes to Haris attached to me crying. I could see that my gown was already in place and it was definitely by him, the sky was

cracked voice indicating that my throat was

ping his face with his palms as he saw

ached and burned and I could feel dried blood

m but I remembered from the pain I felt that my wrists ha

is

mm

you o

rt was heavy but I couldn't cry, if I did then he

Haris, we will

nding the n

m m

g closer to me and I moved bringing him c

he had a high temperature and I knew what th

n a while. It had been happening since he was born and I didn'

then falling into a high fever coughing out and v

ure somewhere just that I couldn't get a hold of it so when he was sick l

couldn't do that and so I laid there with him praying silently that this time, t