t open the door for him. I stayed, frozen in my spot. Prayin

u can carry on with my friends and then not let me in on a

friend do anythin

verything. I only told

it him. Just fuck off and

h the door. He was bashing on the door so much that I was sure it was going to break at any sec

, I was done for. I knew that I wou

have it, I heard the

on up here?" Marilyn yel

Jack asked, as calmly as

phone. So, are you going to tell me what th

e door but Ella started screaming." Jack lied. I could feel the hot wet tears slipping

Seattle. I had to hurry up and save as much money as I

opportunity to grab my clothes and I darted across the hall to my

om the other side, thinking

Marily

ng dressed

door locked

etting dressed

on't know how to show any respect

d I let people walk in on me while I'm gettin

w what you m

know why I didn't just give you away when

ally hard to calm down, but it wasn't working. I was still shaking.

k to work and she wouldn't be ba

bottles, which meant that Jack was getting

e you like th

orry."

or?" Sh

not strong enough to

stacked against you right now. You are definitely strong enough. I know you

mean a little more if it wasn't co

ou mean?"

sically telling you to tell

urself that you love you? You don't, becaus

t know if I

to be happy

re that I'm not happy?" I asked. And I

She said. But I rolled my eyes as so

to use me as a

that. I think the

hem to." I said, sta

kept trying to flick it away but it wasn't working. I started to shake again and I was feeling really sick

irror that I had in my room and I o

bbed the whole lot in a ponytail and I cu

my hair in the bin that was in the corner of

without you here to keep me halfway sane."

stashed in my room because I needed i

to avoid putting a bandage on it because that would j

didn't actually look too bad now. There was just a l

of my face. I wasn't sure when I got that.

sink or something. I would have to put concealer on it tom

wasn't good. Since I used i

warmest I was ever going to see it. But I had to cover up completely with long sleeves and long pants

at you're planning for

y senior year and then I'm out of her

's the right thing

to stay her

ot with these people. What

all I know these are just teenage hormones going crazy because I've

lem with getting to k

it's a little s

trange?"

all the time. Not like they're competing for me or an

about both of t

. But in reality, it seems weird. I think it's just best if I keep my dista

to go back to Seattle more than I wanted