er and over again. Sometimes the pain come

times it is a combination of all the colors. I don't need a doctor to tell me

when their mate betrays their shared bond by having intercours

to me because it is so obvious, Xavier h

c system at a high volume just to drown out my screams. The pain is alwa

the maids bringing me food don't have somet

has been driving me crazy, literary. Each day I spend

ieve me I have tried everything, well almost everything. The pain is liquid fire burnin

and it takes all my strength just to ge

n three hours each day. I now rock dark circles under my eyes. Plus th

y, feel it as if I was living it in real life, the destruction of this pack and the end of

hat I hate most is seeing Xavier dead, his he

to shake the images of my dream from my mind, and alw

even worried about my dreams coming true, about the world ending,

en it seems like he and the world are

ing Sophie, my former best friend. We haven't talked since she turned eighteen an

ack would turn on her and reject her as the female beta because she associated her

ook li

ake the closest thing next to me which turns out to be a lamp and I throw it at her, given her w

I am in so you can go and tell the rest of the pack? have so

interrupt her, not wanting to hear a

d me that she would always be there for me no matter what, but she

past that and talk to her

w I was suffering so they sent you right? To get all the juicy stor

not it,

n't mean to shout at her but I am so d

just list

r mouth is bound to be vile, just go to the pathetic new friends you now ha

please, I a

just leave already I

cks but she gets the message and after staring at me for a few seconds s

d, so crazy and s

nough. So I take the next thing and the next thing and tra

are torn along with my sheets and duvet, my chair and desk are flipped, curtains to

s you here' the voices start wh

choking it up to paranoia but her

ou dead, they wi

but an insignif

d your pathetic life, the worl

, just s

ust keep on getting louder making it impossible for me to shut them out. I

ought the words and taunts that were directed at me by the pack mem

hen I thought it couldn't get any worse the pain from Xavier sleeping with

ven asking the reason for his behavior? when it is as cle

dn't have wished this on anybo

t? Xavier is maki

rything, and they ar

ther's name ove

tes shouts Bianca's name w

sting in and out of your si

re, no more, I

eek while the voices all around me laugh

ng I have been on the floor but the pain soon fades leaving behind only a du

d eyes staring at me and then I f

h voice say just as I faint all the w