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distance between us anymore and I can't stand not seeing him anymore. How many times I restrained myself from calling him, from going to see him at work, pretending to have gone to see Maya. How many times have I restrained myself from going to his house to tell him that I need his warmth. I think

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o I hav

ave a break today so we

go see him at his office ins

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it is. Com

on his bed t

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miss

a:

w if it's a good idea

have a better result this time and vice versa. Just because you failed yesterday doesn't mean you can't tr

loves me from the

owing him I can say that he still

it but I'll still pick

ul. Alright I'm off. Fancy somet

ot re

rogram and I don't really know what to cook.

eaves. I'm also going to

his office I meet Ryan who is heading towards his. He pretends not to have seen me and when I greet him, he barely answers me. I feel a pang in my heart but I say nothing. When I arrive in front of Maya's office I tu

Hi R

t we had alrea

ed greeting. You completely

you? Maya's office is on

are you doi

t am I do

use we're not sleeping together doesn'

om his seat and comes t

friends with the woman we love. Either we go out or nothing but no fri

The rest of my day at work I was in a daze. I can't stand his absence anymore, I miss him, not miss him sexually but miss him personally. Ok that's enough. I can't last another day without him. I finish the last storage in the box, I change and I take the first taxi I see, direction to Ryan. During the trip I reh

n I co

not sleepi

n't come

days. I can still see us making love all over this living room. He offers me a drink but

eated): Yes

I'm

n:

u. I agree to g

ade you chan

y fingers): I

main silent staring at each other without

y some

n:

hat all you ha

n:

e to come and declare my feelin

the door he turns me around grabbing my waist and grabbing my l

s lips): What

ing you but now I

weren't going to

we weren't together y

jeans): I miss

ou too

e fast. As soon as I receive it in me I am over the moon. It's o

ya AME

knew Cynthia in college and even lived in her home with her mother who was my mother's best friend from school. My mother followed her new husband to Ghana when he was posted there for work. I couldn't follow them because it was in the middle of the year. So I was living in a city until one day, having gone to visit Cynthia at her house, her mother recognized me because of my resemblance to my mother and she offered me to come and live with her. It was her way of reminiscing about her friendship with my mother, with whom she went through college and university before they lost sight of each other.

e hot-blooded and very direct one. You put yourself in her way she puts you in your place but she is also adorab

g): Have you he

ary): We knock b

ing that's written in that dia

ybe she had something unexpected

till call so we c

up): You kno

d stop cajoling her.

n, let me

rs. It's been a long time I haven'

: We had to

e men who know how to braise chicken better than women, and this is the case with this guy who is j

Good even

Cynthia why every time you are

she must h

there, she could at least let

sorry girls. It's just

Ho

o for it like you told me and we are toget

outh to be happy for my friend. I get there a

ded to engage in a s

hanks to you. Olivia do

I'm angry

e she is going to spend the night with Ryan who is waiting for her downstairs. It does not take long to leave, stealing a

encourage him if it

ow what you're

go to the kitchen wher

id you encour

he wanted to

But you

ou heard Cynthia, he told h

aid from the start that y

d you that I have never stopped talking to you about the only and great love that I have known in all my life, although there has never be

has to remind him. There are only her own things that she never forgets, especially when it comes

wasn't d

o him because he was too ''horny'' according to her and you Madam I am the Nicest on Earth you gave in to please

and today they are going out together. So in summary I lost him permanently because even if they break up I can't put myself with him. It's not okay to date your best friend's ex. Look at me Oli, I'm the complete opposite of Cynthia. All I know how to do is work. I've always been a nerd. Ryan has always dated girls like Cynthia so there's

as saying. Always obses

ief on grief with Ryan. Since high school I can bear to see him fall in love with other girls. This time I don't know i