seeped through

ot to close the curtains last night after Bl

nd he didn’t once stop until we were in front of our house. I still tried to say goodbye, but he completely ignored me and sped away on the motorcycle. I stood out there until he turned the c

aturday, so I turned around and got back into bed. It was not like I

ho told him? It’s not like I have any friend

I was also reminded by my growling stomach that I didn’t eat at all yesterday. So thanks to that I was

milk over my cereal when

was my mom and she sounded liveli

wasn’t planning on giving her more than what I just gave her. I would talk, but only enough to

ated the question as I

ell that I have no d

at was it. As long as my mouth was full she couldn’t possibly expect me to answer her. I mean,

e smile on her face tried to convince me in the one thing I really did not

as I pushed another big spo

ld watch that movie you have been dying to see?” she asked, clear

e with you! Think for yourself a bit. I stopped speaking a

t I caught myself saying: “Nah t

news honey! Who is

start being nosey about what is going on in my life.

from schoo

Her irritating voice screeched through my head and I groaned. How could a grownup act like

e square betw

don’t even have his phone number. I bet Lucy would have it. She makes sure she knows everything abou

ans didn’t help either. Not even when I straightened my hair until you couldn’t see my eyes anymo

e Ba

for a while before I clicked it. Eureka! Th

ut last night

tes before his mes

Wanna

t cold feet, now is the time to do it. Afte

@ the ap

One… Two… Three… …. … T

there in

*

ut that didn’t take of the ed

ed out the latest albums. Why on earth did I have to message Blake? Was I really that mentally fucked? Was I really looking for trouble that

f you would a

ound and he

ed shirt, chinos and a hat that sat askew on his head. Without eve

hen his phone went off with Panic! At the Disco loudly proc

said with a smile and gave the phone back to me, m

wn under the tree, patting his hand on the

e I lived?” I blurted.

and laughed. “Beach-blonde-barbie is

ing that we do this all the time. Meeting up under the tree and ran

wanted to talk

lypse coming my way, although

ht. I’m not used…” I

here and now, and very occasionally the future,” Blake said and positi

e right things at the right times! If I didn’t

didn’t want to look into his eyes. I didn’t want him to see min

world to do. Like he would walk into my life and just magically make eve

my eyes. Everybody wanted to fix me over t

is voice. I am sure if I was to look up to his face I would s

ear slipping from my eye, no matter

g upon my feelings, but also needing to know the truth, and damn

way he means in any case. There is worse w

? Look

siren and I was forced to lift my head, ignoring m

eart wrenched up and pounded against my throat. My lips became his, a

try and escape the grasp his lips have put me in, but that was the furthest thing from my mind as I parted

u are making a stupid decision! I could hear every word being screamed in my head, but I could not

ecret he will be just

hat he fell backward, and I didn’t stay to see if he was okay. Instead I turned around and I ran as fast as

*

that fateful night. The one that drove me into complete silence all together. On the one hand I wanted to just stay still and act as if I was sleeping, but my

as drunk. I could tell by t

h’ee way

fter everything happened. He said we had to do it that way. He had to stop drinking and I

m my mom. From him. Even from Blake. I didn’t want any of them near me at this moment. That is why I didn’t come home. Why I waited

mumbled, deciding that

nd.” His eyes narrowed. I could

ve to talk.” I was close to wetting myself. I had to get away from him. I was w

accompanied by spit an

dy wants to be friends with

to an ugly wrinkle, trying to consume the knowledge he

m my bed and half walked and half fell out of my room

ly as I could, not wanting another encounter like that ever again;