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gliobl

ined enough to know what he just told me, but I do know

it b

y heart skipped a beat

really

what glioblastoma is and wh

o me sounded like a ticki

essive headaches were due to stress. I thought the na

felt was because I was

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don't ge

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hed bi

ly twent

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to live longer t

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ly to prevent it from spreading furthe

and shook

pend the next year or even m

nod

't wan

widened a

ll be in a lot of pain and will d

tol

lot of pain. Just give me painkillers

sed by my decision, but I won't

five years, I am

ears of my life getting treated at th

making so easily. You should discuss it w

cof

ers? None of those p

for a year and three months now, and I

barely see him, and when I do see

e stayed together, the harder it became to pretend tha

g down the days unt

ivorce after all because I will be de

about my life, and I have made

ctor and stoo

time. I do hope you change your mind, but for now, give th

e. I got the medication he prescribed and saw the pitifu

kay? How d

Since Joan moved to Madrid for studies, Matt has been t

t want to be anywhere

ed. He didn't ask any questions an

d I got out. I tried not to think about

d the do

sked m

going

im with

ha

let

and it will explode at any time. Wha

name soun

t's

let

ed, I get a year, but if I am lucky, I get five yea

old

uld get

at he would say.

on drugs that will end up failing eventually. I ch

old

u need to get t

ple

fer for years if I am going to die anyway. I choose t

de me more, but thought against it

uch I needed the hu

ace in his ch

done anything. I spent the past year looking forwa

s to my freedom. I eve

nned out for myself and

way with him, but now I can't even take care

had time, bu

ected me with his arms and saved me from being

ars left in my eyes, and

y made up your

opped me off at the

odd

t. It might be three months, b

e best three

old

you goin

me, and

ile for a

old

ught you had to

odd

establish myself somewhere far from here, but I am

that I got in the past year. I alre

he silent, cold-hearted monster I marr

used to pay an advance fo

elp if y

ok my

n handle myself. Thank y

d him again before s

cry, I spent the next two hours writin

ed time, but now that it's my reality, I

th over fifty things that I needed

for a divorce lawyer, and it

papers, and I signed before sending the

it to him at home, but h

ke he always does to tell

he isn't home, and I never ask, e

and no one knows that we are marr

my step-sister, who has bee

but I heard from my mother tha

ver we meet, she always asks me when I am going to g

and I weren't intimate; it would o

will move out of this hellhole tha

om everything and l

, but I will make the most