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se, I'm making a mess... I'm sorry I'm shaking. I can't stop it. Please don't
eft my lips, the air in the room changed. I saw his hand
y. It didn't even hurt at first. It just felt hot. Then gravity took over. I didn't choose to fall; my legs just gave u
that was filling my mouth while staring at a dusty scratch on the
every god I know. I asked for small things. I asked for a full stomach. I asked for a warm blanket. I asked for death
ired. That was worse. "Pathetic mutt. You thi
weak, whining girl who can't even shift properly. You should have died. When your mother took those pills, she should have taken enough for you too.
d the sound
I curled my toes into
knew this, and that's why he never used leather belts. It neve
It sounded like an animal dying in a trap. The wolfsbane immediately seared my skin. It didn't just cut me; it cooked me from the inside o
noise I made. I was screa
me thrash. He looked at me like I was a broken appliance he was trying to fix with a hamme
. Please, just stop my heart. Make me vanish. Turn me to ash so I don't have to feel the silver agai
n. I saw the silver buc
gain. Right ove
screamed until I was coughing. He ju
age had shifted right when they were just 16. I am a "late bloomer" to the world, but to him, I am a failure. I
he s
hed back in
at and blood. My back felt like it had been dipped in lava.
ked at my hand. It was shaking on the floor. M
red welts rising up on my thighs, my stomach, my ribs. They were de
h. My neck was smooth
at are hidden. He wants me to look pretty for the world. He wants me to look like a normal girl so he ca
t u
My muscles locked tight, spasming with the need to obey. I hated that my body betrayed me ev
. They were shaking so bad I a
ep your face pretty,
My throat was swollen shut f
t," he
, stinging the open cut on my
e I am only useful
across his face. It didn't
til my spine hit the wall. He stopp
ke my scalp burn. "But you have your mother's face and skin. An Alpha daughter who can't shift is worthless in a pack. But a pretty face? That
s. I am an Alpha. I have killed rogues twenty-five times stronger than you without blinking. You
ed back, dusting his hands off
When I invited the Beta and
. Being held down by men whose wolves made them strong enough that my scre
you from a pack of Alphas, sweetheart. She'll just make you heal faster so we can do it again. Now get out and clean yourself up. You're a
med shut. The
loor. I didn't cry anymore. I was tired of crying.
I went to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror. My eye w
e cabinet above the s
for pack members who broke the rules too many times. It was for werewolves who couldn't be controlled
he handle. It
d of pain, and then the silence would be real. I could save my wolf from him. I could save her
eached out. My fingers brushetop
do it yet
o be strong. I had never felt her. Not once. But if I died now, I would never know if I w
ee her. Just once.
ibs and remember the last time I saw my mother. I was eight. She was pack
even though I'd tried to be quiet. When she turned, her face was a mess of bruises, one eye
o back to bed." That
ome but she had looked me a long terrible moment and s
beautiful wolf and crashed through the
unable to track her, unable to follow, unable to
r against my burns until
. Alive. Free. She found
cape and buil
eft me he
me. But because I wasn't worth
would she want me then? If I showed up on her new pack's border,
s, I don't even
unforgivable in the werewolf world.
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lendar. Today's date is circled in r
e for a first shift. If you haven't shifted by eighteen,
my las
scratching at my consciousness, whimpering, trying to surface but un
e stronger. Fast enough to break through the window
to make it
up. Even without a wolf, I feel the command in m
conditioned to obey Alpha or
dominance. "Spin." I turned slowly. He circled me like he's evaluating
rtant, Lila. D
hday?" I
d enough to split my lip but not har
u make yourself useful for
hat miles you'd take to ensure their happiness but do it! You're going to make them want you. Seduce them if you want! Or else... And trust me, Isla, the buyers in the
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