I had drowned before-not in lake water, but in a black cell beneath Tate Castle, torn apart on a cold stone floor. Three nights ago the Moon Goddess had rewound my death and thrown me back into this seventeen-year-old body, every scar of that life still carved behind my eyes. I knew exactly why I was sinking again. I had been waiting for this shove.
The heavy velvet of my court dress was an anchor around my body, dragging me down into the black. My chest burned. There was no air left anywhere in the world.
I clawed upward anyway, limbs cramping in the paralysis of the cold, the pale afternoon light above me shrinking to a dying coin.
Through the rippling mirror of the surface, I saw them.
Kandace clung tightly to Bridger's arm, her petite frame almost pressed entirely against his chest, her face wearing a carefully rehearsed expression of fear. Her every gesture seemed to announce that she was meant to become the Luna of this pack. And Bridger.
My betrothed. The Alpha heir of the Tate Pack.
He looked down at me drowning and felt nothing. His pale amber eyes held no panic, no worry, no mercy. Only cold disgust, as if I were a stray dog sullying his lake.
"Look at her struggle," a highborn lady tittered behind her feathered fan. "The Montoya family's wolfless daughter has finally lost her mind."
"Born without an inner wolf," a young warrior laughed, dumping his wine into the water above me. "If she dies, it only cleanses the bloodline."
In this kingdom, a wolfless woman was worth less than livestock. I had heard it every day of my life.
"Do something, my lord!" someone called.
"Why?" Bridger's deep voice rolled across the water, amplified by his Alpha dominance, and every word was a blade. "Aurelia, stop this disgusting performance. Did you truly think nearly dying would make me pity you?"
Kandace buried her face in his tunic, shoulders shaking with false sobs. "Aurelia is only jealous that I awakened my wolf and she never will. She wanted to frighten you, Bridger."
He stroked her hair. He actually stroked her hair, tender and gentle, while the woman he was sworn to marry sank to her death ten feet away.
Something deep inside me went very, very quiet.
I had not been a stranger to any of this. I had lived it before, in a life I never asked for.
In that life, I loved this man with everything I had. I gave him the Montoya fortune, the caravans, the mines-and the moment the last coin fell into his hand, the day he took the Alpha seat, he locked me in a black cell beneath Tate Castle.
Kandace came to my cell every night. With her little silver knife.
I died in that darkness, torn apart, forgotten, listening to the music of their mate ceremony drift down through the stone.
That was my previous life. The Moon Goddess had rewound it and set me down at its beginning once more-a perfect, merciless do-over. This fall into the lake was the first move I had already played a thousand times in my dreams.
Hatred ignited in my cold veins like lava, burning away the last of my fear.
So I did the one thing none of them expected.
I stopped struggling.
My limbs went limp. My body sank willingly into the pitch-black, my eyes fixed on the couple above through the dark water.
The pressure crushed my eardrums. My lungs were on fire. I refused to blink.
Bridger turned away first - of course he did. He wrapped an arm around Kandace's slender waist and guided her from the shore, cutting off my last hope of rescue without a backward glance.
But as she turned, Kandace looked over his broad shoulder, straight down into the depths where I floated.
And she smiled.
She mouthed the words slowly, so I could read every syllable through the clear water.
Die already. The Luna crown belongs to me.
My fingers curled into fists. My nails bit through my own palms, and tiny beads of crimson bloomed into the dark current.
A few scavenger fish tasted the blood. They slid out of the weeds, needle-filled jaws parting, lunging for my hand-
And an ancient seal inside my chest shattered like glass.
Silver light erupted from my heart - pure, holy, blinding. The scavengers scattered like ash in the wind.
A waterless barrier bloomed around my body, granting me one precious breath of dry air.
Then a second flood of sacred knowledge poured into my mind-the Celestial Healing Realm, a boundless space filled with divine herbs and ancient medical texts, inherited in its entirety. And deep within my previously lifeless pupils, the phantom of a massive white wolf flickered and opened its eyes.
The supreme bloodline of the Moon Goddess herself, unlocked in the darkest water of Moon Shadow Lake.
The pain faded. The power settled into my bones like it had always lived there.
And beneath the surface, in the freezing dark, I smiled.
So this was what I had been carrying all along, buried under the wolfless curse they mocked.
I let the silver light fade and drifted in the shadows, dead to anyone watching from above. My hand slid into my soaked sleeve, and with a single thought, a slender bone needle appeared between my fingertips, its tip gleaming with a faint blue venom.
In my memory, I had rehearsed countless times the scene of driving this thing through an enemy's throat.
I was about to get so many chances to practice.
Then - a scream tore across the lake, shrill and heart-wrenching, breaking straight through the water into my newly awakened senses.
Sadie. My maid. The only person in this world who was loyal to me.
In her previous life, she was tortured to death, broken beyond recognition, slaughtered for her loyalty to her mistress, and then her body was dumped in the mass grave outside the city walls.
Not this time.