time, barely able to study, just counting down t

ven though I kept tagging along with different groups, I couldn't really connect with anyone. I tried to

ff," I said lightly. "Is ev

smiled an

ne asked me after your night c

" I tried to h

r never hearing from you again-she took care of it." Brian hesitated, then ad

d, hiding my d

rian, I stopped going swimming. Someho

tance growing between us. School didn't feel special either-Uncle Steve had already told me about most of the

Jenny's picture had been replaced with a h

I called Amber. She never brought up that I called he

and talk, I'm listening-just cutting fabr

to bother you," I said quickly. "I

logetically. "I forgot to

l with short brown hair. Total opposite of your partner-she knows everything. I'm learning more from her than she is from me," I ad

go on, but Am

go." And just like th

friends about my new fling-and th

m the pool was there again, sitting at the bar with her friends, drinking and

a top that looked more like a bra. I asked her to dan

h her, but still requiring some actual dance skills. I ran my hand along her bare back, but the whole thing didn't excite me like it used to. T

walked her back to t

quieter?" I asked as

ished her drink, stoo

stions-about her family, her studies. I answered her questions too, but I wasn't really listening. Her roo

ng for a husband," she said with a grin and p

-wearing boots, she was almost my height. I tried hard to return the kiss, but the whole thing felt wrong. I don't kno

s I stepped out. "Thi

l behind and ran down th

ack the old Jay, and I started avoiding parties altogether. I slept w

I hated