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f-limits at all times, a rule that Lily was apparently aware of and had

ily was at her afternoon play session downstairs with the neighbour's kid, the study door was slightly

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and deliberately empty, no clutter, no person

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desk, books on every surface, papers that

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t of the door was e

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here, and here.

them we

led like it was her natural resting state. In some she was

graphed at all, reading, or looking out a win

her belly and the other wrapped around a mug, looking down at herself with this expressi

y, red-faced, wrapped in white and the woman was looking down at

he world had simpl

l photographs and just saw her as a whole, this woman, everywhere, alive in every fram

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s fi

t's on th

e said it quiet

and, blue spine, some kind of nature photography

n't touch mine

then stood there with hi

door was right there. I'

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n't help it, and he must have seen

Claire,"

orked that out. Like he

autiful,"

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ed in the room like

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to do with that.

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, or maybe I didn't let myse

f Claire with the newborn. He

under his arm, and walked to the door. Completely

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d to his footsteps

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ents he'd pulled out of the rest of the apartment and put in here where he

t he'd said. She wo

he saddest thing about the situation. not even close. But so

ve seen something in me worth liking. The idea that

he desk, neatly, where he'd kno

under the water for ten seconds the way my mother taught me when I

erald-less for once, telling me something very fast about

her to the elevator and n

said, as the

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at me. "Your e

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han four, the one that made me think she'd been watching adults her who

just put her hand in mine and

t meant she didn't fully believe

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a wall full of photographs or a man who kept them all behind a closed door, o

hink about

managed