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ice sounded th

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my legs. My heart pounded, though

yn, was brought in by ambulance about forty-five minut

right. ICU. Ambulance.

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and shoes. Wallet, keys, phone. I didn't check

brated. My hands trembled uncontrollably. Every thought crashed into the next: Hear

o my new manager wi

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y came i

ready calling out? We'l

red if my mother didn't

, faces gray with fear. I checked in, then everything blurred: machines, tubes, my mother unconscious and smaller than

million

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. I left at dawn, still in yesterday's

as kind, which som

ome, credit, and no collateral, they

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osigner, someone w

sk between us. "I

as sorry. I

ng as I ste

professional. "We need to dis

in. "It was an emergency. I can sta

ounds for termination," she said. "We've dec

all e

ushed past. Four years of college. Loans I'd b

ecause I didn't kno

d questions I couldn't answer. When she asked

ed," she finally said. "

gainst half a million. She talked about fundrais

months," I said.

holding on to each other because n

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g desperately, but nothing. Grants with waiting lists. Loans I didn'

I s

nions Wante

again. Closed my lapt

shut and pu

to be an

. I must have dozed off in the waiting room becaus

for a

e I could react. The loan shark grabbed

on," he said. "Your mot

ss knuckles. Another smile

ut work. About how much Alph

asually. "A lot can happen in

down the wall, shaking

ing her hand. I whispered everything, about the

you," I promised. "

witched faint

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flection. I barely recognized myself. The

ost c

'd try one more

harks did

me toward a van, hands over my mouth. I fou

an rolled i

d out, big, ca

him," o

loose his pheromones. The sharks backed a

y l

ching, protecting me. My mother's sur

finally broke down, crying

the room that

another option to a

morning and stared at

my life was about t

verything w