Caught between Two Alphas

The night was bitterly cold, it was the beginning of winter and everywhere was cold, but the pain in Lily's chest burned hotter than any flame, burning her heart into unrepairable pieces.

She had waited for Damon for days, helped him get over the death of his father and also to fit into his role as the Alpha of his Pack, but all she longed for was just a moment with him, only for him to shatter her world with a single sentence that broke her world.

"I reject you as my mate."

Earlier that evening, Lily paced around, looking back at the woods that led to the pack's waterfall, waiting for Damon to come, but there was still no sign of him. She would never had imagined that this was how it would be.

She was nervous and very concerned. He hadn't come out for 3 days now and she was worried for him. she wanted to go see him, but his mother the Luna always made sure that he was serious with Packs duties every single time she wanted to meet him, and so the only time they could meet was in their secret meeting ground, the deserted back side of the waterfall that led to the Pack's lake.

Damon White, the first son of the Alpha of the Whitemoon Pack, the guy who had stolen her heart without having to do much.

He was the son of Alpha Edward who had saved her after her Pack was destroyed and had brought her back with him, and raised her as his own. Alpha Edward had been her father's friend, and when he had learnt that his friend's Pack was under attack, he had rushed over with his warriors but they were late. They only met with the Pack ground full of corpses and flames.

He had been on time to save his friend and his Luna from being burned completely and had held a grand burial for the Alpha and his Luna that same night, while he mourned the death of his friend.

It was then someone found her and brought her back to Alpha Edward. Alpha Edward upon seeing her had hugged her tightly, consoling her. But she had been so shocked that she could no longer cry, or maybe because she had cried enough.

She watched her parents get burned right before her eyes, away from the rest and their ashes thrown into their Packs Lake, while the rest of the Pack members and the buildings burnt in the terrifying fire the rogue Alpha and his rogues that had attacked and destroyed her Pack had set.

When she was brought to Whitemoon Pack for the first time, she had crept into her shell, locked herself in and cried her heart out. It was only after she got here that she again realized how alone she was, and just how much she missed her parents.

Alpha Edward did everything he could to make her happy, but he was not her father, and the shock of their demise still had not left her, it was something she was going to remember for the rest of her life.

But that was when she met Damon. He was reserved, hardly talked or anything, at least that was what she thought at first. He would creep into her room through the window and watch her cry without stopping her, then he would give her fruit.

She ignored him, and sometimes tried to fight him off, but he was patient and stayed with her. She was so lost in her grief, but he made it a duty to always come to find her, and somehow whenever he was there, she always felt better.

In no time, he had managed to take her out of her room where she had locked herself and got her to socialize with the rest of the Pack. But she was too afraid to socialize, however he took her to all the events and tried to get her to make friends. But he was the only friend she knew, and that was enough for her.

Their friendship was fine with Alpha Edward, but his Luna hated the thought of it alone. Whenever she saw them together, she would send Damon away on a mission or a task so they wouldn't be together, but he always found his way back to her and stayed with her.

Maybe it was because of the trauma from her childhood, she never found her wolf again and so was tagged as one with no wolf. But Damon stayed with her, loved her and helped her.

He confessed that he loved her, but she was afraid that he would find a mate and would be forced to leave her, but he had assured her that she was the one for him, and no one else.

It was as though the moon goddess had heard their hearts and had made them mates. It had been the best news ever for them, having to be mates with the one you have fallen in love with. They now had the liberty to make their relationship known, and Alpha Edward was very pleased with this. He blessed them as they planned to have a mating ceremony in their favour.

However, everything suddenly went rogue when Alpha Edward suddenly passed away in his sleep. It was the worst news because he was never sick or weak, but he had suddenly passed away.

Damon was only 22 then, and she was just 19, they were not fit to be rulers at such young age, but after Alpha Edward was buried, Damon was called upon to become the Alpha of the Pack.

It was his place, even though he felt he wasn't ready, she assured him that he would do well as she consoled him for his loss. But after his coronation, it became hard to see him, he became busy, and she still had not been crowned his Luna yet, their mating ceremony was held off after Alpha Edwards death, but she was willing to wait for him and support him from the side lawns.

However, as she stood in the darkness gazing back at the entrance, she suddenly realized that he was not going to show up again today.

She couldn't help the feeling of disappointment that washed though her, he had been too busy, and she had missed him. She wondered if he kept forgetting their appointments or was he just too busy to see her?

Lily reminded herself to be patient and wait for him, but the night was getting very cold, and she was already freezing. She brew warm air into her palm and rubbed them against each other to keep them warm, and then she put her palms against her cheeks to warm them up.

"Five more minutes, lets wait five more minutes." She reminded herself against the gritting of her teeth, she wanted to stay longer, but the night was just too cold.

"Lily." Someone called out behind her, and she turned in excitement and just as she had expected, it was Damon.

He stood there watching her with so much sadness in his eyes. "It's cold, you should have gone back inside." He told her, his voice was cold and not matching his sad eyes.

"I was waiting for you, I haven't seen you for days. I have missed you." She told him, her eyes sparkling with tears.

Without another word, he came to her and gathered her into his arms, hugging her tightly. "I'm sorry." He whispered to her, holding her tightly against his body, and she instantly relaxed feeling the warmth of his body spread through her.

"Its Ok," she said, "You must have been busy." She told him, but to her surprise he pulled away from the hug, his eyes full of sadness.

"I'm sorry Lily, I really am."

Lily didn't understand, but it did feel like he was apologizing for something else, but that got her even more confused.

"Are you alright Damon, you look very sad." She said, but he shook his head, stepping away when she tried to touch his face, and that was when she frowned.

"Damon, what was going on? you really are acting very strange, and I want to understand what's going on. Did something terrible happen while you were handling the Pack's affairs, was it too hard for you?" She asked him in concern, but when she took a step closer to him, he stepped back.

"Am sorry Lily, but we can't continue this anymore." He said to her, his voice firm and unshaken.

Lily's heart stopped at his words, she blinked in surprise, her lips quivering as she asked him, "Can't continue what, Damon what are you talking about?" She asked, her voice breaking as she spoke.

Damon sighed and turned away for few minutes, then he said slowly, "You are not fit to be my Luna Lily, you are weak, and you have no wolf. I must protect my Pack, it is my utmost duty, and you don't fit into it. I'm sorry Lily, but I reject you as my mate."

His words were like arrows piercing deep into her heart, and she felt so much pain as she felt her heart break. Her legs suddenly felt too weak, and she collapsed into the ground, her hands trembling as tears blurred her vision.

"Damon, why...why...why would you do this to me." She cried out, her voice breaking as her tears took over.

She was back to shading tears, something she felt she was long over, but here she was back in that pit. She felt so betrayed and broken as she stayed there.

Damon looked sad too, but he reminded himself that it was the right thing to do. He reached out, intending to help her up, but she couldn't see him, and when he tried to touch her, she flung off his touch.

She stood up her face covered with tears, she wanted to say something to beg, but each time she opened her mouth to speak, only sobs tore through them.

"Tell me why at least, was all these years of our friendship just a joke to you. Or was I just someone you kept by you just for fun, did you ever love me?" She finally managed to ask admits her tears.

Damon's jaw tightened and his throat suddenly felt too dry. He took a step back refusing to talk about his feelings. "let's not talk about this Lily, the night is cold I suggest you go back to the Pack." He said gently, trying to help her again, but she shook herself out of his touch, her face full of tears.

"Do not touch me, answer my question Damon, I deserve to know at least." She yelled in tears, but he was unyielding.

"Goodbye Lily," he said to her and walked away. But he paused midway, and then turned back and walked back to her.

Lily who was crying profusely looked up hopefully at him, but he simply removed his jacket and wrapped it all over her.

"Do not catch a cold." He said, and just like that he turned and walked away. Not sparing her another gaze even as she collapsed into the cold earth, watching him leave her.

She cried in rage, looking up to the sky from where she lay in the cold earth, but it seemed even the moon goddess had turned her back on her, because the moon was soon covered with dark clouds.

She didn't know how long she lay there or how she had managed to return to her small room.

After Alpha Edward's death, the Luna had moved her to a small room in one of the outer houses where the Pack's warriors resided. Damon had assured her then that it was only temporary and as soon as their mating ceremony was done, she would move in fully with him.

But now she was aware of what had happened, she was never going to be accepted fully into the Pack. Her protector had been Alpha Edward, but he was gone now, and she was now alone.

She tried to protect herself, to remind herself to get over Damon, but she lay there crying her eyes out. Why did everyone end up leaving her, and why did she always end up alone?

That night, it rained heavily, pouring hard against the roof of her building while she lay motionless on her bed.

She began to think about how everything had gone wrong, why hadn't she been able to foresee this? She would have avoided it, she would have shut her window when he kept sneaking in, she should never have given him a space in her heart.

Maybe it was because of their closeness that the moon goddess made them mates, maybe she would have had a better chance if she hadn't let him into her heart. Now she was alone again, lost in her pains and tears. Why was the world so cruel? She wondered, and for the second time after her parents died, she considered suicide.