Instantly I see the beautiful face of the girl bathed in tears in my mind, my God until when I'm going to see her face anymore? Until when this scene will no longer run in a loop in my head? I am asked ..
It has been going on for five long years, I blame it so much, I blame it too much ..
- Papi I always continue to blame me, this girl was innocent papi, everything is my fault, I should not have lying to her, tonight she had admitted to me that she trusted me, I put her in confidence Papi, I promised to do serious with her when I knew I was lyingAt the bottom of me say I tapping on the table.
I still can't forgive myself for what happened five years ago, this little one was not the whores I kissed, no she was beautiful, pure, sweet and everything ..
I played my charm to have her in my bed, I told her that I wanted her and everything, we were so drunk that we had finished in bed, she had confidence in me and she gave myself to me, I will never forget her face bathed in tears when I possessed her, shehad confessed to me at the same time as she was a virgin, I should have stopped instantly but no she was far too good for me to stop.
I act like a coward, I should have waited for her to wake up to be able to chat with her, I know I have broken the confidence she had for me ..
I regret so much, so much ...
- You were far too young inquired.
I look at him with red eyes, certainly I am the most uncompromising, angry, cold and everything but basically I have a big heart, I don't want to be the offender that I have been he is five years old, no I don't want him anymore for which I changed and I worked hard to beThe one I am today ..
- I only know it about this guilt has not been leaving me for years, I don't know what to say, I am tormented.
He taps my shoulder while sighing.
- I know it's not easy son only try to forget that and redo your life, more women fall to your feet, he said ..
Following his sentence I display a grin on my lips, he was more right, I am the power to have all the women at my feet only I disgust myself so much that I can no longer touch a woman, like this night I have never made love to a woman again.
All I do is kiss them without touching anything more ..
- You're right Papi but ..
- There is no one but who holds Campbell, either you are a woman and you have a child with her or you go through an artificial insemination tonna do you seriously.
After her sentence I pass a nervous hand on my face, ah papi ..
- You are my only grandson and I wish that in return you give me rear granddaughters or you wait for my death first? He said ..
My heart tightens immediately, no he won't die right away, no I need him too much I said to me internally.
I get up to put myself in front of him.
- Papi does not speak of death anymore, please say I.
- Okay my big one but try to think about what I told you and make the right decision, in addition this girl will no longer remember you, who may know that she is somewhere enjoying life while you moped on your fate, he said ..
I sigh a long time, I don't really know what to think of all that, if I ever come across this girl I would immediately recognize her since she had an angelic, beautiful face, I am sure that she will not remember anymore since I changed it a lot that it is physically andMentally but me if.
I don't know what I would feel if I saw it again, I left America to join Mexico now it's been years ....
Certainly I have several companies in America, Mexico, France and all over the world but I prefer to stay in Mexico since in America I would not feel comfortable.
- I understood Papi, I'll think about it.
- Well my big one, well I'm going to let you work, we say to ourselves this evening at home tonna.
I give him a kiss on the cheek before letting him go.
After his departure, I tighten a glass of cognac while looking in the void.
I don't know what my future rhymes but we'll see ..