I stand in the shadows of the great hall, watching the Blue Moon Ceremony begin with dry eyes.
In our pack, this ancient rite is no party. It is life and death. When a she-wolf comes of age, she must be publicly acknowledged by her fated mate beneath the blue moon. The Moon Goddess forges our soul bond, but the bond is only complete once the whole pack bears witness.
Without that public claim, the wolf spirit inside you feels abandoned. It turns savage, and in the end it tears the host's sanity apart.
I never wanted to come here. I did not want a crown. I wanted one year in which I did not have to count what everything cost.
But Arthur - head of the New Moon Pack, Alpha, with billions to his name, and my fated mate - put my name on the registry himself. Then he told me I was making a fuss over nothing.
That morning I divided my three moonstones among the three most important men in my life. Moonstone is exceedingly rare, and in the old, solemn tradition of the pack it stands for the supreme honor of pure blood.
One went to Arthur. One went to Finn - the boy I grew up beside, and the Gamma of the pack. The last went to Leo, my little brother, a Beta warrior.
I told them to lay the stones on my altar tonight. A small thing, easily done. It was only meant to secure my place as the future Luna. I did not watch them carry the stones to her altar. I did not think I had to.
Now I look at my own altar, draped in velvet. It is empty.
I turn my head. A few paces away, Selene stands prettily beside her altar. She is only an Omega, her blood muddled, the lowest of the low in the pack. Yet her altar is blazing with light - three moonstones gleaming on a silver tray.
Three moonstones that are mine.
I walk to the corner. Arthur, Finn and Leo are standing there with crystal champagne flutes, laughing.
"Why are my stones on Selene's altar?" I ask quietly.
Leo avoids my eyes and rubs the back of his neck, irritated. "Elara, the whole corridor was thick with her distress pheromones just now. It was driving us crazy. You have the purest blood in the pack. You don't need a few rocks to prove what you're worth. Selene has nothing."
Finn nods in agreement and steps in to pat my shoulder. "Leo's right. You have to see the bigger picture. Selene is fragile by nature. The lower ranks are protective of her. As the future Luna, you have to show grace and generosity. We gave her the stones to settle the pack's mood."
I look at Arthur. He is the Alpha, absolute, and his word is law. The dark bespoke suit he wears is worth everything an ordinary human could earn in a lifetime.
"You agreed to this too?" I look him straight in the eye.
Arthur takes a sip of his drink. His scent - dark wood and strong tobacco, the smell that used to settle me - now carries nothing but a bitter, sharp edge.
"The elders are watching, Elara," Arthur says coolly. "We have to show the lower ranks some consideration. The wolf in you is too proud. If you cannot set aside your pride for one night for the sake of the pack's political standing, then you do not deserve the seat of Luna."
A cold that bites to the bone climbs my spine, inch by inch. I do not scream. I do not cry. I simply stand where I am and watch the blue moon rise through the glass dome.
The smiles fade from their faces. My unnatural silence makes them shift their feet. Even in human form, my pureblood carries a weight, and they can feel it.
Selene glides over to us. Her pale gown makes her look as if a breeze could knock her down. She reaches out and slips her hand through Arthur's arm.
"Alpha Arthur," Selene says softly, her voice trembling at exactly the right pitch, "I have the moonstones now, but the elders say I still need a guardian escort for tomorrow night's territory procession. Would you... walk with me?"
"That's a good idea," Finn says, smiling gently at her. "Pack unity is what matters most."
Leo chimes in. "Yeah, Arthur, just say yes. Selene has been through so much. Poor thing."
Arthur glances at me, then looks down at Selene. "All right. I'll walk with you."
"Are you insane?" I step closer to him. "You are my fated mate. Walking the procession with an Omega is the same as publicly declaring courtship. Her blood is impure. You are grinding our bond into the dirt!"
Gold flashes dangerously through Arthur's eyes. "That's enough. Stop being so sensitive and fragile, Elara. You use your bloodline like a weapon. The way you're hysterical right now, you will never be Luna. Why can't you just let her have this one night?"
Selene lowers her head and puts on the look of someone barely holding back tears. She reaches into her pocket and draws out a small cloth pouch. It is the charm I sewed for Arthur myself, stitched with pure silver thread. Silver burns a werewolf's flesh. I endured that agony, needle by needle, only so that he would be safe.
"Elara, if this really means that much to you... I can give it back," Selene whimpers, holding the charm out to me.
I reach out to take back what is mine.
Before my fingertips can touch it, Arthur steps between us. He lifts his hand and knocks my arm away without a flicker of restraint.
"She doesn't need it," Arthur says coldly.
Then he lets his dominance out. All of it. The Alpha command hits me like a wall of poured concrete. Under that sheer, crushing authority my knees bend on their own, my lungs burn, and the command demands nothing less than absolute submission.
"Stop throwing a tantrum and ruining our Binding Ceremony," Arthur commands, his voice laced with something beyond the human. "Stay right here and keep your mouth shut."
He turns his back on me and walks Selene straight to the elders' registry table. Finn and Leo follow, grinning, chatting warmly the whole way.
And I am left standing alone under the cold blue moon.
Deep in my mind, my white wolf lets out a broken, mournful cry. The pain of a fated mate's betrayal is supposed to rip a soul apart. But my wolf does not want to die. To shield me from an agony that would have wrung my soul out of me, she retreats into the darkest corner of my mind and curls herself into a tight ball.
She closes her eyes. She holds her breath. She sinks into a deep, total, endless sleep.
The last warmth in my chest drains away. The frantic, desperate pulse of the mate bond slows, beat by beat, until it is barely there - slow, distant, almost gone, like frost on a winter night. What is left is a cold I can carry.