Then, a pair of headlights cut through the trees.
Relief washed over me so intensely my knees felt weak. His old Ford pickup, rattling up the gravel driveway like it always did.
A rush to the door, hand on the knob, ready to see the familiar, stoic set of his jaw, the cool distance in his ice-blue eyes. Even that was better than this gnawing emptiness.
The truck door creaked open. A tall, powerful frame silhouetted against the moonlight-a giant of a man, built of solid muscle and quiet intensity. But something was wrong. That stumble as the door shut, the movements lacking their usual precise grace.
Frozen. Hand still on the doorknob.
Footsteps on the porch. The door pulled open at last.
The smell hit first.
Whiskey. Strong and sharp. It clung to him, a heavy cloud of alcohol and pine from his usual scent. But underneath it, something else. Something sweet. Sickeningly sweet.
A woman's perfume.
The heart that had been fluttering with relief dropped like a stone into the pit of my stomach. Cold and heavy.
Then he stepped inside, and the scent became overwhelming. No glance my way. Those ice-blue eyes, clouded and distant, stared at nothing. A shoulder bumped mine as the broad frame brushed past, heading straight for the kitchen.
Following felt automatic. Feet moving without permission. Throat tight.
A shaking hand reached for a glass from the cupboard. The glass clinked against another, the sound jarring in the silence. He was going to drop it.
"Donovan." Barely a whisper.
A step forward. A hand placed on his arm to steady him.
The skin beneath my fingers was burning.
Through the thick fabric of his shirt, an intense heat radiated, a stark contrast to the cool, controlled man I knew. At the touch, every muscle in his body went rigid.
Slowly, he turned his head.
The sheer size of him in the small kitchen was suddenly suffocating. That massive frame loomed closer, shadow swallowing me whole. Hot breath, reeking of whiskey, brushed against my ear. A shiver traced its way down my spine, part fear, part something else not dared to name.
The question had to come, even if the answer would shatter everything.
"You... you've been drinking?" Voice trembling now. "Who were you with?"
No answer.
Instead, a sudden shove-back hitting the refrigerator. The cold metal shocked through a thin sweater. A hand planted on the door next to my head, caging me in. The world shrank to the space between his body and the fridge.
His head dropped to my neck.
A deep inhale-rough, guttural, like a predator savoring the scent of its prey. Completely still now. Breath caught in aching lungs. Mind screaming to run, to push him away, but the body refused to obey.
A low growl rumbled in his chest, a sound vibrating through my very bones. Pure, possessive satisfaction.
This wasn't the Donovan I knew. The man I knew kept his distance-polite, remote, emotions locked behind a wall of ice. This man was raw, untamed. A wild animal. And terror was the only word for it.
Hands came up, pressing against his chest-a feeble, instinctual gesture.
But another arm snaked around the waist, pulling me flush against him. Like being bound by steel bands. No escape.
Then came the voice-a low, gravelly rasp, thick with alcohol and something much more dangerous. Two words against the skin, each one a brand of heat and possession.
"Mine."
The word struck like lightning. Legs gave out. Only his hold kept me upright. A tremor ran through every inch, starting from the deepest part of the soul. A feeling the wolf-the dormant, quiet part-recognized even if the mind didn't. A call and a response.
Rough, demanding lips began a trail up my neck. Not a kiss. A claim. A search, mapping skin with brutal urgency. The spot was what he hunted. Just above the collarbone where a male wolf marks his mate, binding her to him for eternity.
Heart hammering against ribs. This was it. The mark. The irreversible, soul-deep bond that every wolf dreams of and fears.
Eyes closed.
Half screaming in terror. The other half-the secret, traitorous half-leaning into him, waiting. Waiting for the pain, the connection, the finality of it all.
Waiting for the sting of his teeth.
But it never came.
The weight against me suddenly grew heavier. The movements stilled. A deep, shuddering breath escaped the broad chest.
Eyes opened, confused.
His head rested on the shoulder now, breathing suddenly even and deep. The tension drained from every muscle.
He was... asleep.
The adrenaline that had been coursing through the veins vanished, replaced by a bewildering sense of anticlimax. Emotions swinging from sheer terror to a kind of hysterical, disbelieving numbness.
A gentle push attempted. "Donovan?"
Too heavy. A dead weight of muscle and bone. A mountain, and escape was impossible.
With a sigh of pure exhaustion, a shift of weight, letting him lean more heavily against the refrigerator so he wouldn't slide to the floor.
Moonlight streamed through the kitchen window, illuminating the side of his face. The handsome features were relaxed in sleep, but the brow remained furrowed, as if even in his dreams, he was in pain.
A wave of something complex and aching washed over everything. Not just fear, not just anger about the perfume, but a strange, unwelcome surge of tenderness.
A long, weary sigh. No more struggling.
Just standing there, pinned against the cold metal, holding the weight of this broken, beautiful, out-of-control Alpha, and wondering what in the Goddess's name this strange, painful arrangement between us even was.