I watched as a ghost while he ignored the pleas of my colleagues to perform the life-saving surgery I needed. He even told my mentor he wished I were dead. Then, he proposed to Kimberlee with my ring.
My love for him finally shattered. I was dead, my career was being destroyed, and my murderer was wearing my ring.
But death wasn't the end. It was a front-row seat to their betrayal, and I was tethered to the man who let me die, forced to watch every single moment.
Chapter 1
Clarissa Hester POV:
The world exploded around me a week before my wedding. The metal shrieked, glass shattered, and the icy water of the river rushed in, not just around me, but through me. Kimberlee didn't just run me off the bridge; she slammed into me, again and again, with a cold, calculated fury that had nothing to do with the storm.
My car was a twisted coffin, steel tearing into my flesh. Each impact felt like a giant fist trying to crush me out of existence. The world spun, then slammed, then spun again. I tasted blood, and the piercing pain in my arm was a white-hot spear. I tried to move, to breathe, but my body wouldn't obey. Everything was broken.
Then I saw him. Deacon.
His black SUV skidded to a halt, the blinding headlights cutting through the rain. He was here. My fiancé, my brilliant neurosurgeon, my lifeline. Hope, sharp and desperate, surged through me. He would save me.
The paramedics were already working, prying me from the wreckage. My body was screaming, every nerve on fire. I saw flashes of the bridge railing, twisted like ribbons, and the dark, churning water below. They pulled me out, my limbs heavy, useless. I was a broken doll.
But Deacon wasn't looking at me.
His eyes were fixed on Kimberlee. She was slumped against the guardrail, her designer raincoat soaked, her shoulders shaking. Her face was pale, streaked with tears, her breath coming in ragged gasps. She looked like a fragile bird caught in a hurricane. She looked like a victim.
"My God, Kimberlee!" Deacon's voice was a raw, guttural sound. He rushed past the paramedics, past my broken body, straight to her. He wrapped his arms around her, pulling her close. His hands stroked her hair, his lips murmured reassurances into her ear. "It's okay, baby. Just breathe. It's over now."
I could hear the paramedics talking over me, their voices muffled. "Massive internal trauma," one said. "Pulse thready, BP dropping," another added. "Right hand... completely crushed."
Deacon glanced my way, then back at Kimberlee. He straightened, his face hardening, the storm outside reflected in his cold eyes. He was Dr. Grant now, the top surgeon, the man who owned this hospital, the man who owned me.
"Her injuries are superficial," he barked, his voice carrying over the wind. "Focus on Kimberlee. She's in shock. Her astraphobia is acting up. She needs immediate sedation and a private room."
Superficial.
My right hand, my surgeon's hand, was a mangled mess of bone and flesh, barely clinging to my wrist. My ribs felt like jagged shards poking at my lungs. Blood pulsed from a gash on my forehead. Superficial.
"Deacon," I rasped, my throat raw. My vision was blurring. "Deacon, please."
He didn't move towards me. He just held Kimberlee tighter. His eyes, so familiar, so beloved, held no warmth, no recognition for me. Only a distant, irritated assessment. "She's just trying to get attention," he muttered, loud enough for me to hear. "Kimberlee is the priority. She almost died."
Kimberlee sobbed, burying her face deeper into his chest. "Clarissa... she hates me, Deacon. She always has. She probably tried to hurt me."
The words hit me harder than any impact. I felt a cold dread, worse than the pain. He believed her. He always believed her.
"No, Kimberlee," Deacon soothed, his gaze flicking to me, filled with contempt. "She won't touch you again. I promise." He turned back to the nearest paramedic, his voice low, commanding. "I need you to prepare a waiver. Kimberlee Potts was involved in a minor fender bender. She is absolved of all fault."
The paramedic stammered, "Dr. Grant, she's critically injured. We need to stabilize her first, get her to the OR."
Deacon' s eyes narrowed. "I said, she's fine. A few scrapes. Kimberlee just had a panic attack. This is my sister-in-law. My family. Clarissa needs to sign this document, or there will be consequences for everyone involved."
He strode over to me, a clipboard and pen in his hand. The rain plastered his perfect hair to his forehead. He didn't even flinch at the sight of my blood. He just stared down at me, his expression devoid of pity. "Sign it, Clarissa. Make this easy."
My hand, my right hand, was crushed. I tried to lift my left, but the pain was too much. "Deacon... I can't."
He grabbed my mangled right hand, his grip surprisingly gentle, yet firm, ignoring the blood and the twisted bones. He forced the pen into my fingers, guided it to the dotted line. "You will," he whispered, his voice dangerously soft. "Kimberlee needs this. Don't make her suffer more than she already has because of your recklessness."
With a guttural cry, a mix of agony and utter defeat, I managed to scrawl a shaky, unrecognizable mark. My vision swam.
"Good girl," he said, and the words were like a fresh stab wound. "Now, I'll call another ambulance for you. Get you to St. Jude's. A general surgeon can patch you up there." He walked away, back to Kimberlee. "Clarissa will be fine, honey. I'll make sure she's taken care of. Just focus on getting better."
He walked away. He just walked away, holding Kimberlee, leaving me in the rain, broken and bleeding, alone. The promise of another ambulance, another hospital, faded into the roaring in my ears. The rain felt like tears, but they weren't mine. I couldn't cry anymore.
The world went dark slowly, then bright, then dark again.
When I opened my eyes, the rain was gone. The shattered car was gone. The bridge, the paramedics, Deacon, Kimberlee – all gone.
I was floating.
A strange lightness filled me, a sensation I' d never known. No pain. No cold. No blood. Just... an absence. An emptiness. I raised my hand. It was whole, perfect, translucent. I could see through it, to the faint glimmer of the city lights far below.
A chilling realization washed over me. I wasn' t cold because the rain couldn't touch me. I wasn't in pain because my body wasn't there to feel it.
I was dead. My heart, which had just moments ago fought so desperately for life, had stopped beating. He had let it stop.
My wedding dress, hanging pristine in my closet, felt like a cruel joke now. Deacon was here, but he didn't save me. He saved her. And I was nothing.